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sch is sick

2007-01-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

Instead of paying attention to what the teacher has to say, i ended up paying attention to my puny brain telling me i have to vomit

I keep going in and out of the sick bay and i swear it smells like the hospital
Thank you to everyone for putting up with my nonsense at school for the past few days

Im sorry if i had complained, whined, groaned, MOANED too many a time

D:

HAPPY 16 BIRTHDAY TO AZMEER!
HI OLDIE, I HOPE YOU SEE THIS.

YES, YOU'RE OLD HAH

lost and found

2006-12-18T00:51:00.000-08:00

funny the number of times i've tried so hard to blog. but my stupid computer refuse to publish my post. so now i am in amira's uncle's shop borrowing the computer.
and amira is right behind me using labtop and msning me. how pandai.

drama workshop was super fun.
i love being a drama queen!

CONFESSIONS OF A TEENAGE DRAMA QUEEN:
I lost something. Something precious that belongs to someone. But I lost them. And I thought of giving up, but somehow I am not going to let it go just yet. So Im sending a search and rescue team up to my brain and down to my heart to find what was lost.

OH, I LOVE to talk to myself in front of the mirror.

BYE

sakit hati

2006-11-14T19:58:00.000-08:00

Things havent all that well for me this past few weeks. And im not the only one. My hopes were dashed and my mind was a mess and it may sound corny or cliche, but my heart shattered. Whatever it is, i still have my friends by my side to make my happy again.

Time to GET SCREWED this holiday.

On a happier note, i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE jalan raya. The coming-home-late-at-night, the boys in baju melayu(quite hot u know D: ), the $$ ( cant deny that fact ), and the funny funny crazy wacky great moments. Oh, but most of those mony in envelopes are all in some cash register at some shop out there. IM A SPENDER. Sigh, would you care to give me a treat? NO? I thought so.

Im QUITE fucked up but i know i have someone that shares the same agony. I guess im playing a charade.

OKAY, im all BORED now. As in, my holidays are BORING. SO PLEASE! IF ANYONNNEEEE, anyone at all wants to go out and dont mind having me around, please give me a call and invite me D:

Im going to head to the library to borrow EMO books more often now. Actually, i read pretty predictable books. Those stories where you can predict the ending and if the girl will ever get her true love back at the end. SIGHS, GIRLY BOOKS.

"Here's something you need to know about me. I am not a HAllmark card, ohh ahh romance, Valentiney love kind of person. My parents' divorce and my one other experience of love ( adam Peterson, who i really cared about. Okay, I told him i loved him. we hugged. Held hands. He told me i was beautiful. He told half the school we had sex ) has knocked the white-laced-veil vision right out of me.
Love seems to be something to approach with caution, as if you'd come across a wrapped box in the middle of the street and have no idea what it contains. A bomb, maybe. Or a million dollars. I wasn't even sure what the meaning of the word was. LOVE? I loved my telescope. I loved looking out at the depth of the universe and contemplatingits whys. But love with someone else, an actual PERSON, was another matter. People got hurt doing that. People cried and wrapped their arms around themselves and rocked with loss. Loving words got turned to fierce, sharp, whip-cracks of anger that left permanent marks. At the LEAST, it disappointed you. At MOST, it damaged you. NO, THANK YOU."
- Cassie, Wild Roses

On the contrary,

" 'Oh cassie, nothing's that simple. very few things are the black-and-white. I wish they were. Nothing's a hundred percent good. Nothing's a hundred percent bad.'

'Okay, eighty-nine percent. If it's bad, get rid of it. Eight-nice percent is enough.'

'You're talking like a scientist,' she said (Cassie's Mom). 'Some things can't be measured. Let's say you love astronomy. But let's say it causes you some problems. Back pain, eye strain, I don't know.'

'We're talking mental anguis. Astronomy doesn't cause that.'

'What if it did? What if, say, I don't know. Maybe this isn't a good comparison. Say you couldnt get into school to study it. Say your maht skills werent good enough. Say you really had a struggle or something. What would you do?'

'Give it up.'

'But you LOVE it.'

'It depends how much i love it versus how much pain,' I said. (Cassie)

'Love is not something that can be measured, Cassie. Sometimes love just IS. Sometimes it's a force with its own reasons. Reasons we don't necessarily understand, but with a power that is undeniable.'

'You sound like an After School Special.'

Mom sighed. 'Fine. Never mind. Sometimes you can cattle rope your heart and someimes you can't, that is all.'

'Now you sound like a country-western song.'

'I'm shutting up with my motherly wisdom. You're on your own.' "
- Conversation between Cassie and her mom, Wild Roses

UBAN

2006-09-20T07:05:00.000-07:00

It's 9.58pm.
In my hands is a strand of white hair.
Which my sister plucked,
FROM MY HEAD!

Not only am i fat, short and down. I HAVE WHITE HAIR. WTF D:

mooody

2006-09-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

The Diary,

,in which i hide my thoughts and truest feelings

September is the worst i think. I just dont like this month anymore. I used to look forward to it, but now i want it to end. I cannot cope and manage the difficulties i have any longer. But im trying my best, and the best i can do for myself is to stay positive.
I need to discipline myself. I need to learn how to say no. And, I need endorphines to make me forget this hard and fast paced world.
I want amnesia!

PEEEL

2006-09-19T05:36:00.000-07:00

AND MY SKIN IS PEEEEELINNNNG! ):

stress!!!

2006-09-19T05:11:00.000-07:00

S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D

EYE is really getting to me. Friday is the ENGLISH paper and i am not confident at all of even passing. AND ITS ENGLISH PAPER! And i cant believe i failed my English CA2. So, how am i to pass EYE?

I dont know what else can i do besides studying hard and smart for these few weeks. And thats what I'll try to do.

TRY.

But yesterday, i felt so tired and stressed out that i broke down. HAHA. Now i find it funny. But im so freakingly TIRED.

T.I.R.E.D

birthday come birthday gone.

2006-09-16T20:00:00.000-07:00

=DD
I have the GREATEST FRIENDS on earth!

THANK YOU LYANA, for calling, waking me up and wishing me.
the day just wasnt complete without you there darrling :( but, thanks!

THANK YOU AMIRA, for fetching me at my dootstep. and being the FIRSTT to wish me and to be there to celebrate with me. thank you(:

THANK YOU MAISARAH, for all the nasi bungkus, teh susu/tarik, and making me strip in front of you! HAHA. and for INFORMING and being there to celebrate with me. thanks alot :]

THANK YOU HAZIQ, for sacrificing your day to be there and celebrate it with me. for being the ONLY guy not wearing a WHITE shirt. terima kasih =)

THANK YOU FIRDAUS, for being there to celebrate with me and putting my $5 back into my bag (UGHHHHH!). (: thankkkkks

THANK YOU XUANHAN, for the cute tote! for walking ALLL THEE WAYYY from vs to reach east coast. and for all YOUR GAYYNESS and to be there. thank youu, meow!

THANK YOU AZMEER, for everything and making my day a very special one. the bracelet is OHSO PRETTTY! for spending my first few hours being 15 on the phone and layaning my karenah. =D i ohso sayaaaang you! thankyouA(:

16 09 2006 was a wonderful day.
i found new best friends that would be there just for me.
and CMON you guys, you didnt have to go through all that trouble for my birthday PLEASE!

My wish came true and i have to thank all you people for that. So, THANK YOU for just being there to laugh and celebrate it with me.. :D

"I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life.
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life,"

dancedanceirrisistable!

2006-09-12T06:10:00.000-07:00

"XOXOXO MUAH! When you look at me, tell me what do you see. This is what you get, that's the way i am,"

Look closer at the pictures. Can you recognize the each of the dollies?
Still can't see? I show BIGGER picture!

If you tell me you dont recognize these dears, you commited a sin by lying already! HAHA. Amira with bun, Lyana with op shirt, Maisarah with paintbrush ponytail and me, THE OBVIOUS, the shortest!

I feel whacky today. Actually, is there even a day when i am not?
See this smile upon my face? Look closer. Observe.
It's there because of all of you.
It's BECAUSE OF my family, my friends, my new friends and you.
And, it's there FOR you guys.

=D KISS KISS!
XOXOXO
WITH LOVE, HUSNA.

Sept Bdae Celebrations.

2006-09-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fun fun FUN! When we reached Changi Civil Service Club it was RAINING! And me, being my normal evil self, LAUGHED. Well, the purpose of going there was to use the BBQ facilities, swimming pool and etc.

The previous plan was to be at East Coast Beach, but bbq pits were fully booked so there we were at Changi. The scenary was nice though, overlooking the Changi Beach and the sea.

Luckily, it was only convectional rain! So, it lasted for a while and all my cousins were already stripping into their swimming costumes except for FOUR girls. We walked into the loo in TUDUNG, and came out in 'SCUBA DIVING' suits. YESYES, two piece long sleeved, long pants swimming costume!

The birthday cousins! Nurul(10), Harith(6), Raqib(8), Me(15) and Ulfah.

COUSINS! Humaira, Ulfah, Nurul, Zuhairah, HUSNA, Raqib. IM OLDEST!

BABIES IN WATERRR! Swim cap: ACHU holding my brother. YELLOW SUBMARINE: Ashraf, NEWEST cousin!

EHM EHM, i FEEL old showing these pictures. Im the eldest grandchild! But, it has ALOT of benefits. So that's the swimming section. If anyone want to see more, enjoy yourself at my aunt's photo album.
http://matakamera.multiply.com/photos/album/16

Our hungry stomachs were calling for the BBQ foodies. So i ate, MEE HOON and BBQ HONEY CHICKEENN! While we were eating, my parents went to collect the SWENSENS BDAE CAKE!

AH YES, that's a real ice cream as deco. Vanilla and Sticky Chewy Chocolate with chocolate bits in em.

September Birtdays. Clockwise: HUSNA, Raqib, Harith, Nurul and Uncle Zul

It was kind of whacked out. The maids were BBQing and i was dancing in the middle with my cousins. & of course, i danced with my brother again..( HENCE THE SONG ABOVE! ) We had free live music from the bar. My sister and I tried the JOAKIM & PAUL booteh shaking. We did the twist, robot dance, tango dance, ballroom dance and downright BOGGEEHHHH.

YES, his hand at my waist! TANGO BEBS. I scared him off when i polldanced with him as the pole! LOL

drunk sisters doing the thing SI finalists keep doing.. (:

Last but not least, the gifts giving ceremony! THANK YOU Aunty Rozi for the Elmo Tote Bag! THANK YOU Uncle Wan & family for the generous HONG BAO ($50)! THANK YOU NENEK for the Body Shop White Musk powder and Oceanus Perfume ANDDDD HONG BAO ($50)!
THANK YOU ACHUUUU, for the BOOOTIFUL, Guess handbag!

OH YEAH HUNNNY BUNNYS.

More pictures: http://matakamera.multiply.com/photos/album/17

I went home with a BIG SMILE plastered on my face. But i end up sleeping with black tear streaked cheeks as a result of mascara and eyeliner. (:

I AM SAM touched my heart and i was crying over some other things yeah. Thank you OH WONDERFUL FAMILY for the WONDEROUS food, presents and celebration!

Song specially for my family. Love LOVE them!
XOXOXOXO. WITH LOVE, HUSNA.

MOVIE.MANIA

2006-09-07T05:19:00.000-07:00

LISTEN PLEASE!

"All I want to do, is grow old with YOUUU."

Let's review the week progress. Statictics show that no homework has been done so far but movie ratings is high!
Barnyarn was superbly enjoyable despite the boring storyline and The Devil Wears Prada was extremely inspirational that it will leave you wishing you had a deep pocket.
The only movie which has yet to be open in cinemas is THE RETURN OF HUSNA'S RENOMA WALLET!

Well, well, well, Husna needs a change of attitude towards her schoolwork. BIG TALKS, SMALL ACTIONS! EYE is let's just exaggerate, AROUND THE CORNER. and she needs to focus on her weaker subjects alot more.

Scrap schoolwork. Lets talk about FUN. WHAT'S FUN YOU SAY?
Monday, Tuesday and Thursday was FUN.

Imagine, getting a free ride to IKEA and wishing you owned all those BOOTIFUL rooms on display! Then, watching your boyfriend play well for his floorball match and you not telling your parents you went all the way to Downtown D'Marquee. WUUHOOO.

After all the wonderous planning on Monday night, SOMEONE turned out to be the 2nd person to reach! WHO AH WHOOO? One turned up in the mentoned dresscode: buttoned down shirt with jeans and sneakers, BUT didnt wear socks! The other was HATING HERBAL ESSENCE and cant help it when his hair is UNSMOOTH & UNSILKY. Another was 30 mins late and came with TWO jackets. WHILE SOMEONE was the only one in tudung(:
After much popcorn and nacho throwing, some gay loving, idiot handsigns and LJS bell ringing, the TRUTH had to come out. I'll just announce to the whole world myself, MR X.

"I LIKE BOXER PANTIES!"

Two days of tension and guilt finally came the day FOUR DARRLINGS were waiting for. And i have THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA to thank for. You need to start from the bottom and work to earn the respect and the position you dream for. Valentino! Prada! Chanel!

And that's it folks, for this week's progress.
i still love you. Get well soon, A.
And, im sorry if ive hurt you, or anyone in anyway at any point of time.

HAPPY? SAD?

2006-09-05T05:30:00.000-07:00

selfish. unworthy. undeserving. stupid.
i cant take it anymore, and the thing is i dont know what exactly is it that i can't take. UGH im full of shit arent i? bullshitting my way through. im a pathetic friend, girlfriend and daughter.

im really sorry, you.

OK SMILE EVERYBODY. WIPE THE TEARS AWAY, PLEASE.
visions around me bring tears to my eyes.
Watch out world, HAPPY is hurt and is admitted to the hospital it seems.
SMILE, and THE WORLD smiles with you.

i guess I AM YOUR AVERAGE MINAH.
(: ?
): ?

I dont know what to do, anymore.
Lets leave it at that.

Ku pohon ampun daripada sesiapa yang kecewa dengan diriku.

2006-07-30T23:13:00.000-07:00

when we have so much things to do, errands to run, it is quite sad that we dont take time to notice what's happening around us. do you notice that when you take the bus every morning, it is the same cedarians that is in the same bus with you, every morning?
OK, irrelevant.

ive made some lucky observations about myself and the people around. and, of course people you are not literally around me but i hear about their khabar almost everyday. indirecly, these people, including the ones who are literally around me, make a difference in my life.

what they do, what they DO NOT do. how they feel, how they behave, what they say, what they DO NOT say makes quite an impact on how i should go onor continue the day. and its either i continue positively or negatively.

most of the time we pretend to not realise the LITTLE 'bad' things going on. well probably because its LITTLE and it shouldnt be something we should fret about right? i dunno if im making any sense. but if we continue to hide how we truly feel and the frustrations keep building up inside, we are very likely going to vent out sooner or later. and the venting outlet that we choose can have a great impact. because its either you vent it ON YOURSELF, literally, or you do it the healthy way and turn to someone for help or just for a listening ear.

and i think the venting/ranting/ confessing session last thursday was one of a few examples.
=)

i mean, sometimes people tend to just be angry over the smallest things but they cant help but feel that way. yeah its irrlevant SO?! you cant help but FEEL that way because at that point of time you arent exactly using YOUR BRAIN to work things out. at THAT point of time you're merely surrending yourself to the freaking raging hormones that occurs in your body. and HORMONES. oh see, another marvellous thing. the DIFFERENCE between BOYS and GIRLS.
the DIFFERENT SEX HORMONES.

wait am i talking about the correct TYPE of hormones? nvm.
for example, a girl and be mad over something she finds a need to be angry about because it simply doesnt suit her needs. but to a guy, about the SAME MATTER, they dont see a need to get angry or fret about it.
GIRLS follow their sentiments, their heart, their EMONESS.
BOYS, you see, follow their LOGICNESS, their BRAINS.
they go round it in TECHNICAL WAYS.

so boys, please try and understand, our SUDDEN moooooood change. either from HAPPPPPY to GLUMMMY, or MADDDDD to LOOOVVVINNGGG.

anyway, to anyone out there, im talking about this in a quite general point of view. so jangan terasa ye kakak, abang.

on that note, i think ive 'insulted' (if you guys see it as insults) BOYS enough. GIRLS, Girls, giiiiirrrls. THAT doesnt mean we should outwardly be super NGADA NGADA about it. we can rage, no problem just not all the time. people like BOYS and even those of same gender as us, can get fed up.

ive realised some things as i sit quietly unable to solve a freaking math question, love is give and take. you cant always GIVE neither can you be selfish and just TAKE.
it takes two hands to clap so it takes two people to make it work people!
HOHO
yeah, you belong to that person. but hey, your life is still your life. you must be able to lead your own life without each other.
in a funny equation:
1life + 1life = 1Life

lead your lives together with or without each other.
love is to be with that person. and as the CLICHE saying goes
if you love that perosn, YOU GOTTA LET EM' GO.

at last!

2006-07-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

my fellow dudes and airheaded morons of this cruel yet wonderful world. i am BACK.
at last, after JUNE 18?! how centuries ago was that.

lyana: hello. =))
a century is 100 yrs la.
aiyer.

husna: its called,...., er, actually i forgot what its called.

lyana: samdol.

husna: takper lah. im just placing emphasis on how long ive been gone!

i dunno what to blog about.
taah.

orang tue orang tue,

2006-06-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

saya rasa sungguh lemah walaupun masa kerja kahwin tadi, saya tidak buat banyak kerja. setiap kali disuruh buat kerja, saya akan tangguh dan MALAS nak buat.

translation:
im damn tired, and the day was freaking BORING. GAWD, SOMEONE HELP ME. im sooo lazy.

a womens world

2006-06-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

well, i had nothing much to do. and i needed to SHOW my point about how i TOTALAY agree with the women's world ad thingy. so i made this.

it isnt that nice. but i think pictures says more than a thousand words. look at those abs man. HOT no?

papercut. i had a papercut on my finger yesterday, then i was thinking. something so easily crushed, torn, thrown, DESTROYED, could still cut me if im not careful. quite a good analargy for real life right?

so that's WOMEN'S WORLD. so, from MY point of view, what would there be or happen in a MEN'S WORLD? This should be amusing.

In a MENS WORLD

every channel would be SPORTS segments
and ONE channel reserved for Victoria Secret/Swimsuit IllustratedFASHION show
cars would be PIMPIN' insideOUT
WOMEN would STOP nagging
farts and BURPS would be allowed under table manners
they WISH they have six pack/abs/muscular body WITHOUT gym-ing
FOOOOOD always be there whenever desired
everyday, a LAZY SUNDAY
ALL women shorter than them & LOOOOKIN' GOOOD?
they could cry without being seen as wussy/sissy/BLAHBLAH
BUT HUSNA would still be queen! (:

that's exactly 10 points! that's MY point of view. i got a couple of guys to comment on what they think and these are what they said.

In a MENS WORLD

you dont need licence to drive HOTT cars
there as to be cartoons on the channels TOO!
GIRLS are easier to understand
they would have a GREAT BOD withought gym-ing
cars pimpin' inside out
farts and burps STILL DISALLOWED (not bad, not bad)
the women they love, be their ULTIMATE QUEEN! (AWWWWW, so sweet)

aint that SWEEEEEEEET. the LAST point that is. oh, credits to AHMAD ISA and SYED HAIDAR! thank you boys. although, you guys were kinda hopeless at THINKING. but thanks you did contribute SOME at least.

VENTS

2006-06-16T02:04:00.000-07:00

im going out of my mind right now, doing MATH, MATH and more MATH! seriously, i'd prefer school than having so much homework for the holidays. holidays are meant for relaxation, rest, FUN FUN and FUN. but NOOOOOOOOO, we have to create this thing called HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS.

baboooons BUTT i tell you!

even during normal school term the workload if at least half lighter. or maybe its just me? too much fun in the past two weeks that im cramming my last two weeks with school JUNK. well, at least im better than SOME people who are crazy enough to leave it till the LAST TWO DAYS.

3 Elementary Mathematics Mid Year papers
2 Additional Mathematics Mid Year papers
1 English Compre
1 English Summary
1 English Book Review
6 KARANGAN

5 Olevel Higher Malay Papers
ALL the ringkasan in Buku Kerja
SOME Chemistry AssignmentSSSS
Biology Mid Year PAPER

i think thats about it. dont go all ONLY?! on me. its ALOT of WORK! one subject have more than ONE paper! except for BIO of course. i LOVE Mrs Gay. SIGH.

1 week, two days and half a day more to go. I CAN MAKE IT (:

SKIN

2006-06-15T04:14:00.000-07:00

new skin, people. i feel WOMENISTIC now. esp after i keep watching that commercial.

in a WOMEN's world,
men, would be tailor made.

HUSBANDS would give birth.

HIGH heels wouldnt hurt.

DIAMONDSSSSS would GROW on trees!

SG IDOL results show tonight. HADY MIRZA is good, nice low serak2 voice. im rooting for him in this round of guys. YAY.

JUNE birthdays!

2006-06-12T22:07:00.000-07:00

last saturday, in the afternoon, i manage to get myself off the hook form going to my aunts place early and join the study group. we, meaning me, azmeer, amira, haziq and xuanhan, met up at BUGIS. i was spose to be on the vow i made but how can you go on when someone you love buys you chocolate. THANK YOU TO AMIRA TOO. now ive got my fav DARK CHOCOLATE.

we went to raffles hospital coffee bean and tea leaves. azmeer shared his begian chocolate coffee thingy with me. and haziq offered his strawberry cake thingy, which was pretty tempting but, i din ate any. XUANHAN, in the end, was hungry so we packed and went to BK. he was the only one eating and it took him FOREVER to finish.

i had fun, noisy irritating crappy nonsense fun. (:

then the day continued at the birthday party. i had like 3 servings of food. first i ate mee thingy with chicken! and potatoe wedges. then i had laksa. then i had the mee thingy AGAIN. NOT ALL AT ONE GO MIND YOU. had nth to do at every interval, so i ate!

ulfah turned TWO!

zuhairah, my cousin! turned 13.

the june bdae people. uncles, cousin, sister and maid.

ashraf! the YOUNGEST cousin.

ulfah & me

me, raihan & salihin. i predict, both will grow to turn into MATS.

me & the bdae girl

ash, me & mad

nice facts

2006-06-09T04:44:00.000-07:00

=DD

quotesMANYMANY

2006-06-06T23:36:00.000-07:00

i think font size small and type trebuchet is nice. i found that out yesterday and i grew to like it. my sister is speaking baby language with me. all i can make out what she is saying to me is by looking at what she's pointing at. they are a wonder, babies.

Babyshoes by Dawn Garisch is a hilarious book that has many inspiring and heart felt truth about life and love. how people just come and go, in and out.

"A hand was not just a clever tool, it was a way into the soul, a map of fortune, a way to relate to each other, a means of giving and taking; love and gifts, punishments and violence."
Very true. Our hand in itself is a weapon of destruction. You can either choose to hold someone gently on the face or slap that bloody piece of flesh.

" He was playing with the idea that people in his life come and go, that they aren't constant. Things disappear, but if they return nothing is lost."
Some people in your life may not be as significant. But you do notice them, just that they can never be there to protect, care or stay with you. So even if they have returned after vanishing, you feel like you havent lost much without them anyway.

"Relationships are trouble. From the outside they look soft, but on the inside they get stuck between a rock and a very hard place."
This quote came from a divorced mother who gave up on men. No wonder so depressing eh? But to some people maybe they can relate. As far as i am concerned, the last thing i want is to be in an abusive relationship (not just the physically abusive kinds).

"Mostly I was watching Jill, her face. Was this it? I wondered. This feeling tat I'd like to hold her and protect her, as this the real thing?"
Gosh, its scary to think a guy is thinking like this. Do you guys have mind-arguments? I WONDER. Oh, btw. This is a guy wondering if what he is feeling is LOVE. So interesting! =(

"It's a catch twenty-two: as a woman, if you're completely your own person, then the people have no respect for you; but if you become what people expect you to be, you have no respect for yourself... Nothing seems good enough."
Yeah, in this materialistic, money indulging, deceiving centruy. NOTHING seems good enough.

'"You were a step away from conquering Mount Everest, but you tripped over your own SHOELACES and fell over the edge. You're still falling and it's a long way down. but you what'll happen when you hit the bottom?" I glared at him. "What?" "You'll start climbing again. Only this time, you'll wear boots with VELCRO straps."
I LOVE LOVE this analargy(that how you spell it?). Funny, yet inspiring.

"Understanding women is like learning a different language...... Learning a new language requires effort and will. And goodwill."
Oh hell yeah you boys. Sometimes we may speak the same universal language of, English, but the interpretation of two different minds may have heard each other wrongly therefore leading to probably a fight, quarrel, catfight, brawl, or in a nicer term, misunderstanding. MISCOMMUNICATION.

(I aint any idea if i make sense to you, but it makes sense to me. So yeah,)

What i got from this book is Life is all about making mistakes. It's whether or not you want to learn from it and continue life with an open and optimistic mind(=
"He seems to know instinctively that when you fall off, whether it's off a horse, or a tree, or a relationship, you've got to get up, dust yourself off and get right on back again."

WOW. If only i can use my version of a book review for my english holiday assignment. NOT.

am i?

2006-06-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

i think my mind isnt at its right or normal state.
i dont know whhats wrong with my immune or digestive system.
i wonder if i am having eating disorder or if i am becoming aneroxic?

im not kidding.
ive never felt this way bfr.
like bfr, i would say i ate alot and feel like puking and stuff.
but i dont actually want to puke.

yeah i complain and say i wanna diet and crap.
but the food that i swallow down is pretty YUMMEH.
and i LIKE.

but now.
when i feel STUFFED.
i feel like digging out the freaking food molecules out of my freaking muscular bag(stomach).

and i have been eating disorderly.
then i when i see toilet only i feel like puking.
and i almost did.

id make that puking sound.
and start having stomach aches.
fyn its disgusting. but this my online diary and i wanna write it down.

i will punish myself until my beb doesnt feel punished.
indirectly that would be punishing you.
so i will punish myself the way you do.

tis gna be good?
i alr lost two kg.

THANK YOU?

2006-06-06T05:57:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU FOR PAYING

THANK YOU FOR OPENING THE DOORS

THANK YOU FOR LAUGHING

THANK YOU FOR BEING FAST AT THE POPCORN COUNTER

THANK YOU FOR PAYING

i will pay back btw.

THANK YOU FOR BEING STUBBORN AGAIN

THANK YOU FOR BEING 'PERSISTANT' AGAIN

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME COME UP WITH SOME STUPID THREAT

THANK YOU FOR CHOOSING THE LEAST WANTED OPTION

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME RUIN
YOUR HOLIDAYS

AND MINE!

THANK YOU MY DEAREST, THANK YOU(=

"but you still love him right.."

"tu memang tetap,"

-msn conversation with mr 'wise'

"a guy is respectable if he treats you with respect,"

-FIQO

sleepy weekend

2006-06-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

i tell myself i dont want anymore late night outings. i tell myself its too tiring. i say alot of empty words which dont mean anything. just like i told myself i will never let another boy into my life, and destroy my heart, i let A in. just like i told myself i want to do homework and homework alone, i end up in front of this computer not doing a single paper.

so they say, history repeats itself? i think i will sure go for more late outings(=

i havent any idea what significance the above have but i just wanetd to type it down since i was just thinking about it. like about a few seconds ago.

OH, i love mai now, for FINALLY uploading the pictures up on her blog. but i realise, from the last friday's outing, not ONE of her picture or her partner's was put up.

i am a certified pram pusher. actually, husna certify-ed herself. because today i went marina square with my sister and i can push her in the pram, up and down the escalator without getting anyone hurt!

my aunty and unc are very into malay songs now, i think. or has it always been that way? i need to observe more of the small ordinary things in life. that way, i may appreciate the unmaterialistic ways of the human life!

Aku, takkan melupakanmu

Takkan meninggalkanmu

Takkan menduakan cintamu

Ku ~~bersumpah~~berjanji

-Radja

2006-06-02T22:14:00.000-07:00

Virgo's Daily Horoscope by Friendster:
Many new people are entering your life soon -- and new, inspiring ideas will follow.

In detail: Upcoming events will open the floodgates for a lot of new people to enter your life -- and a lot more fun to start happening. You'll be entering a youthful phase soon -- late nights and goofy behavior will take up a lot of your time in the near future. It's a good thing that you'll in such a bright, positive frame of mind, because you'll be able to make the most of it. The biggest problems you'll be having right now are trivial -- like which invitations to accept and which to decline.

My horoscope is pretty true. I mean just yesterday i had a late night outing. And yesterday's late night outing was amusing, irritating, and fun.

I remember that one night
I met this ~~girl she~~GUY HE changed my life
~~Her~~HIS eyes they melted me
When ~~she~~HE was around I was happy
Because ~~she~~HE completed me
- Remember, 4th Gear

Irritating, because of MR HEAD PREFECT and his 'trusty' multiSHOTTER phone. I didnt mind it that much but when you keep on having a phone going "CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK" in front of your face almost everytime you turn a corner, it gets basi. It gets so basi that i dont shriek and hide anymore, that i POSED. HAHA

am i sporting or what(= ?

Me and A were the FIRST people to arrive. Well, A was earlier. But lookie here, look who came LATE. Amira! Well, i guess she did it on purpose. But how SLOW can someone walk?!

We ate at McDonalds before going for the drama. They were trying to hog my McFlurry away from me, just because i was sick. SIGHS.

OH, we got lost. Thanks to people who wanted to take the bus. Walking would have saved us the pain and time.

The drama wasnt that bad. I expected something more and much better though. Nabil's comments were a slap on the face. But i had to agree on his comments, it was true.

We talked more now, compared to other times we go out. And A has to learn to not talk to strangers. HAHA, hasnt your mom taught you that my dear? TSK.

Yesterday was another one of MY firsts'. =DD I L A.

Will you hold my hand
Will you kiss me and
Pinky promise me
That you will never leave?
-Pinky Promise, School Boy Humour

wednesday work day

2006-05-31T18:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday was ONE WHOLE DAY at school, day. BORING. FRUS. from 8.30-5.30. well, not really cause we escaped an hour before time. CMON LAH. who wanna stay so long?! JEEEEZ.

I LOVE CHERYL LWINNNNNNNNNN.
SHES HAWT!
- by cheryl lwin herself.

i was sick, and still is sick. amira has somewhat become my surrogate mother. MOTHER OUTSIDE HOME.

"SELAGI NYAWA AKU MASIH ADA, i will watch what you eat,"
you gotta have friends like her man. even my own mother dont give me medcine, and she give me hers(= DDARRRLING! thank you so much, iLOVE AMIRA!

at night, my cousin came to get my father to sign some insurance documents and he mentioned how fast one by one our cousin is getting married. i did agree with him at some point. but my father argued some crap, like if they are prepared for this married life, why not?

what im trying to say is not whether they are prepared or not, its like suddenly ONE by ONE they are hitching off, so fast! half the year past and THREE of my cousins got married. as in, they all get married at one go. at the same time. like WHOA.

my father's requirements that his daughter's boyfriends are good enough for us and HIM:
1. sit down in front of my dad and be able to read 1 JUS from the quran.
2. solat jemaah with my dad but my dad becomes makmum, and HE must be able to be imam.

i say GOOOOOD LUCK! to that guy who wants to get through to my dad.

"99.99999999999% guys at your age, NOW, only have one thing on their mind. All this STEADY, STEADY they finding the OPPORTUNITY only. Its whether you let youself become the victim or not,"
- mr. shikh abdullah, director of the abdullah household.

"ABAH, which century are you in? i thought you're "updated"? no one uses STEADY anymore,"
-siti nurhusna, worker of the abdullah household

OH, my family refer to ourselves as an office infrastructure.
my dad being the DIRECTOR
my mom the MANAGER
us children WORKERS

cmon boys, defend yourselves!
is SEX all you're after?

SMOKE!

2006-05-31T01:20:00.000-07:00

this is how i feel.

smoke encircling me everywhere.

covering my thoughts.

covering my THROAT!

still

2006-05-30T04:54:00.000-07:00

yesyes, im still sick. well, i did kind of asked for it didnt i? but today, it got kind of worse. throat got more SORE and now, new addition to the sickness family, COUGH. welcome! welcome! NOT.

watched XMEN: THE LAST STAND today. no one to squeal with when the hot guy came out with his abs just staringat me. AMIRA? no i dun think so. she went EEEE instead. i was like 3mins early form the planned time. but i waited for almost 30 mins? NVM lah. all this is probably payback for ALL the times I was LATE.

AH FCUK. HE IS SMOKING NOW, AGAIN. ARGH. KILL ME BEFORE the SMOKE KILLS ME!

updates!

2006-05-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

TIRED. SICK. BLOODY HELL.

a picture says a thousand words. more pictures more words!

friday night. abang rashid nikah with kak ruzita. on the way to the girls house. i was carrying perfumes and fragrat soap i think.

SAH!

CUN ah beb.

saturday. abang iwan's nikah day. lepaking in my cousin's room after the marhaban. cik munna just gave us custume jewelry and we were fighting who gets which. sadly, i got the not so nice one. ):

one of the hantaran for kak nadia. GUESS BAG AND WALLET. i carried this btw!

another one of the hantaran for kak nadia. M.A.C make up set!! i was about to faint.

sunday. hari persandingan. abang iwan and his best man, abang razi. "fulamak nak bunuh orang ka pe ngan keris tu?"

in the bus otw to kak nadia's side. me, humaira, kak hafizah.

at kak nadia's place. it rained btw, thats why got spots on my selendang. me and syikin.

back from kak nadia's place to our side. at elias park CC. sighs. so cute.

ABG2 dan adek STEP and SELENGS aku. abang zabid, "ugh, dont cedar talk with me," nabil, mustafa, hafiz, "you're p6 and you're bloody tall".

saya ingin umumkan hari ini, hari MAMAT SELENGS. my male kuzzins. theres more. clcokwise from best man, abang razi, iwan, shamil, khairi, mustafa, nabil, zabid, helmi, hafiz, raidi.

the girl cousins! clockwise from the groom. iwan, nurul, hayati, kak ijah, hafizah, me, raudhah, nadiah, humairah, kak dilah, sakeenah, zafirah.

one of the nights. we got bored and searched for possesed people on youtube. my nephew, ashraf, my 'adopted' cousin, afiq aka mamat, my BEAR cousin, raidi.

ULFAH! and sabrina.

another one of our adopted cousin, just now was the older bro. rafiq aka. ADEK!

i think the pictures have spoken many words on its own alr. basically, i had a busy and tiring weekend. and right now, im having sore throat, flu and fever. WOW.

LALA

2006-05-26T08:39:00.000-07:00

yes, yes RONIN rawked the hell outta my sinking socks! Im sure everybody agreed except the people who arent really into the LOUD BOOMING and SCREAMS of a rock band. and the sweatiness and jumping in the mostpit.

went home early because my dad told me they wanna go off at three or sth. turns out in the end i went home and had the time to go online and blog even. i was so angry. SHEESH. NONSENSE. i could have went on triple girl date with amira and lyana!

OH, my results suck like a sucker would suck from a pipette. L1R5 low as dirt. how about i just say, my results dont qualify for a JC admission. SIGHSSSSSS. but my remarks is amusing.

"Nurhusna is a WELL-MANNERED and QUIET girl."

NICE ONE. people should be proud of me! for being WELL MANNERED.
now im at my cousin's place. the whole nikah thing finished at like 10pm?! i didnt eat since morning and it made me remember about what mai's mom told mai which she told me during lunch just now. DIET DOES NOT WORK.

there goes my plan for the holidays.

my cousins are both rebels and MAMAT selengs. i WILL take pictures tom with those MAMAT selengs. one of the MAMAT selengs is TALL. taller than me, or is it just im short? DONT ANSWER THAT UNANSWERABLE QUESTION. and he's only P6.

tomorrow is a day to remember. sadly, i cant be there to celebrate it. well, there's always other times too right? i feel really guilty and sad. i dont think you even KNOW. what not REMEMBER? doubts, as always.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!

2006-05-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

RONIN ROCCCK!

JUMP! JUMP! JUMP!

"Thank you Cedar Girls' for making my lifelong dream come true!" -Levon, Ronin's vocalist.

987roadshow at cedar girls' secondary turns out to be a RONIN rock concert. the lights were dimmed the stage was set for them to perform. MOSHPIT!

we already have a groupie set for SEAN, the lead. HE'S HOTT!
"SEAN! You're hott!!" - the secthrees maniacs

RONIN is band made of ex-victorians. AND they admitted that cedar girls USED TO be their sister school. WHAT HAPPEN NOW? but i remember SSS plan to patch up the pieces. i think it has definitely been patched now ryt?

OH then, amira made me think of something so crude.
" If we're the sister school, then that means, they are our brothers, not boyfriends!"- NUR AMIRA, 3H

GROSS amira, GROSS!

OH, i jumoed and rocked it out on the floor till my shirt got tucked out and i was all sweaty in the air-conditioned MPH. ROCKING MANN!

SEAN's hot. cant help it. CHERYL LWIN hugged and KISSED him!
TANISHA SANWER GROPED his ass, TWICE!

SEAN, may be cute and with better vocals.
but i DAMN LIKED Levan' attitude.

KEEP ROCKING the local music RONIN!

WEDnesday

2006-05-24T04:57:00.000-07:00

2No5' made their debut performance after a year off from BUZZ@CANTEEN. lyana was OBVIOUSLY sabohed to stand at the front becase she knows the steps the most, well, since she created that part of the performance. the FUNNNNNNY part was their exit. RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN! and hide behind the wall.

we watched a korean movie about a grandmother's unspoken love towards her grandson who later learns NOT TO BE SUCH A BRAT. (= EVA LIM CRIED! until she got TOMATO nose! oh, and her tears fell on lyana's leg cause we are all spilled all over the floor lying down.
cheryl kept using my body as her bed or something. yesterday it was to keep herself warm, today it was to sleep on.

one free period left. i slept most of the part. with lyana's jacket. cheryl kept tugging part of it away. so im go, OKOK.SHARE! then we both napped. after school supposed to have MALAY ORAL, me and lyana checked out the library. NO ONE. off we go!

i was nice enough today to help my dear darrlings return their dued books. LOL. went home got SUPER hungry. baby sis said HELLO! with a wave, as usual, and i ate LONTONG GORENG! YUMMEH. did my CI homework. we actually have a plan people! imma proud.

i ate mcflurry. my sis bought TEENS mag.

my horoscope.
VIRGO(=

Set aside time for yourself.
LOVE: Plan something romantic for instant sizzle!
Friendship: Trust your friends to cheer you up.

Lucky colour: Purple

i got below from TEENS mag. Figuring out what women REALLY want is NO easy task- especially for guys!

WHAT WOMEN WANT

1. Read the Signs.
It's not that girls don't say what we WANT, it's just that there are many undercurrents that you have to learn to read.
The BODY LANGUAGE counts as much as the things we say. FOR EXAMPLE: your GF says, "fine, just eat what you want." But immediately after you pick your fav fast food restaurant- teh same place you went on your LAST THREE DATES, she folds her arms, and looks upset.
In a situation like this, read the WARNING SIGNS.

SHE YOUR GIRLFRIEND- you should be able to tell when she's upset with you. It's not just her facial expression, but her BODY LANGUAGE.

2. Love HER, love her FRIENDS.
If you DIDNT alr know, girls are built differently form guys. While friends MIGHT not play a big part for a guy, friends are VERY important to a girl's relationship.The LAST thing your GF wants is to be torn apart between her girlfrends and YOU.
You dont haveto be best friends with them- this might make your GF JEALOUS instead of helping things.
But at least be on talking terms with her best friends. This could be helpful when you're in trouble with your GF; find out why she's angry or gift ideas.

3. Pamper her.
Being an INDEPENDANT and self-sufficient GAL in TIRING. Although its a trend for women to be strong and non-clingy, there are times that gals WANNNNT to be pampered and taken care of, especially by our boyfriends.
"Taking care of," DOES NOT MEAN MAKING DECISIONS, as if your GF doesnt have the brains to decide what she wants. We're talking about things like openign the door for her, carrying her shopping if she seems to struggle with it, or just offering a listening ear for her when she needs it.
These actions might not seem like very much to you, but it makes your GF feel cherished and SPECIAL.

4. Trust her.
There will be times when your GF WILL come into contact with OTHER guys. Since both of you have agreed to be in a relationship, trust that your GF is doing the right thing during her group meetings, and not taking the chance to cuckold you behind your back.

A tip; for all you guys out thr!(=
Keep SMILING.

dance dance!

2006-05-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

i danced ALOT today. another round of BEST PRACTICE DAY. bunked in with MLDDS in AS1. saw elyana teaching two girls malay dance. and i got jumpy and learned the SO CALLED easiest dance step.

i CANT DANCE MALAY DANCE FOR NUTS! i am NOT lembut. i am NOT LEMBUT! dah dats it. i JOINED in malay dance the same year i QUIT it. that was in PRIMARY FOUR! i couldnt stand the cikgu. must gelek and stick the butt out like dunno what. GILER?! bt you're spose to look graceful and 'elegant' while doing it. HOW, tell me, HOW?!

amira needed to practice before sharifah blows off so she ask me to teman? WTH. so i just watch her and i learned a couple more steps! YAY! heh.did not eat. sat in the hall for music recital for more than an hour. SUPER SLEEPY. aarti kept hugging me and tried to share the warmth of my ROXY jacket. we have chemistry my PEVERT STALKER! then cheryl took over aarti's place and she was COLD. so she stuck her hands in at the back of my jacket. and held it there for very long. haha. i could feel the cold from her hands seeping through my uniform into my skin. its so thin, words can pierce right through it.

she was sleeping at one piece and i could fell her head sliding down. TERRIBLE. ate at PP mac with EL members. vicky super gross, mixed her mayo with GARLIC chilli. and vidhya took my place beside that cute guy. SIGHS. it was MY seat darlings! haha. the whole group was falling for him. I EAT FAST. at least thats what they said. TWISTER fries is NICE. BEST YOU! had choco sundae. im FAT. yay. we did drama about communication with parents. can relate to. totally. my group RAWK. improvisation works seh. oh we kept wanting to shake our butts and dance. and we kept expressing our vocal abilities. i LIKE.

just dont look, husna.

the past, and the present.

2006-05-22T05:46:00.000-07:00

woke up quite early. in the afternoon, went off to madrasah. oh, amira was complaining about you. HAHA. amira, cannot tease ah. had the need to eat ice cream so i bought cookie crumble from the kedai mamak. SYIOK!

went to mama edah's house. many many thr alr. shamil brought down his sister's guitar. raidi eksyen play guitar. pluck properly also dunno. i asl him what chords are he went; CHORDS? APE BENDER TU. baeek ah, dok.

both of us went tosearch tabs for songs on the net.i was trying to play the first part of wake me up when september ends. the tabs quite easy. then my dad sebok come in and insulted me! the he eksyen wanna play but forgot his 'skills'. WTH. SHOOO!

watched SI at the same time. they should really show the talents and not show SO MUCH of the annoying tak sedar diri untalented ones. SHEESH. dont these people at least realise theyc ant sing so they dont make a big fool out of themselves?! AIYOH.

TODAY
took taxi to school. i was late. well, almost late. BEST PRACTICE DAY commences with a LOUD GONG! literally.

we did IMPROVISATION for ELDDS. and me and aarti acted out our little MRT PERVERTIC scence. i was a pregnant lady who an old apek, aarti, WANT despoly to seduce. the choir girls sang YOU RAISE ME UP for us. FUUUUUH. sopranos beybehs.

MLDDS, taught two sectwos DIKIR BARAT. i played with the kompang. BEST. PAP PARE PARE PAP PARE PARE PAP PARE PAP! HEH. didnt eat recess. YAY. didnt really do CI discussion, more like DOODLING and drawing session for me.

then lyana and mai showed me their schedule for JUNE HOLIDAYS. when OH when, will we be able to go out?! soo packed! then finally i manage to get my butt off the chair and i played the slapping version of scissors papers stone. HABIS SEH MY HAND!

its all red and blue black now. even azmeer said it lookd pretty bad. SIGHS. so ugly lah! then nurin scared me and said the veins burst lah, the someone else said its bruised. HAIYO. the violents makers of my FUGLEH hand are; NURIN, HARYANI, SITI MAISARAH.

take care maisarah.

took 135 with kak nailah. we talked about how fucked up some dickheaded guys are. UH HUH. those that go into relationships and all they are waiting and WANTING is SEX. no bloody respect. sorry, but yeah they ARE some serious dickwards that need to be expelled from this earth.

i was early! reached at exactly 2.30pm, at least according to my watch. ate at BK, so many many many people. saw syarina. now she knows. bought for his sis ear studs. cute pink stars! talked. walked. talked walked. walked all the way to MP library cause i wanted starbucks THERE whr there's air con. bought this VERY VERY NICE recommended drink. 100% chocolate BABIES!

he bought caramel SOMETHING. and claimed it wasnt SWEEEEEET enough and added sugar i think. TEROK. oh SOMEONE coughed. haha. sufie and nabila. they saw us, but we didnt like run out of the place or anything. WHO CARES.

IT RAINED! HEAVY RAIN! i wore my jacket and we walked and ran through the rain. BASAH, HABIS. COLD and WET. i think im running a fever now.

thank you for everything. the good and bad. it helps make me a stronger person, i think. like i said, the roller coaster rides will come and go. im sorry too. but really, its okey. and i love you so.

FOREVER dearies!

2006-05-20T19:57:00.000-07:00

let's see. there was JIA HUI. SHANMIN. CANDICE. then there was AIZAT WITHOUT the ugly blond hair. YONG SHUAN, the tallest. WEI DE the no more geeky. SYAFIQ, or FIQ who REFUSED to take off that snow cap. and last, the plaited and bubbly NISA. NOT FORGETTING, IDAH and ME!

yesterday, 20th may 2005 gathering started off by meeting idah&adam at MACS. oh, i guess adam was pulling off the goth look? i like his shoes though. then, idah and me left for BI. met jia hui, candice, shanmin, aizat, yong shuan, wei de at the platform. said we going to shaw towers watch movie at lido.

while walking towards lido. curious to find out who initiated this whole outing. turns out its to celebrate about three people's bdae. and one of those poeple were shanmin. so me and idah hugged her. and screamed HAPPY BDAE. then, HAHA, aizat's bde is on MAY 23rd then we were like, HAPPY BDAE! wanna hug? HAHAHA.

met FIQ outside shaw. Hi FIVED him. he wore snowcap to hide his WILD, UNMANAGED hair. he never cut it for 2mths! so since then, our mission of the day was to help fiq remove that snowcap and reveal the mess under it. HAHA. the queue was SUPER SUPER SUPER LOOOONG. so we buzzed off to CINELEISURE.

tried to sneak in to VOICE but couldnt. SIGHS. ended up with POSEIDON which played at 5.25pm. so we ate at LJS. the service POWER beb. the dude removed empty tables ad chairs from other people and put them together for us, 10 people!

i ate the chocolate cream only, had no big apetite. FINALLY, we managed to persuade fiq to take off his snow cap. OMYGOODNESS! afro beb. MINI one at least. then we took pictures outside LJS at the fence.

walked around CINELEISURE. passed PRETTY IN TOKYO. what else! NEO FRENZZY! we had to pujuk the guys to take with us. i mean, 10 people! each ONLY had to play 1dollar ehh. fiq was the sporting one. LOL. he was like COME AH COME AHH.

i found the BIGGEST that could fit all of us in. but the queue quite long so they waited in the next machine. and fiq started flapping his arms and legs. NO, i WONT ever call it DANCING. its FLAPPIN! haha. took dao shots, cute shots, loving family shots. NICE!

oh and aizat freaked the hell out of IDAH. NAUGHTY2! nvm, we are all open ryt guys? had 5 mins more till movie starts. we sat at ROW N. quite in front but its alryt. i sat next to yong shuan and idah. i like to comment and react to whats happening along with the movie you see, so he was all like, EH RILEK2. and laughing at me and stuff. SHEESH!

the movie was good. seriously. i'd call it TITANIC ver.2/ UH HUH.

the rest continued playing arcade. so me and idah went home first. then we had heart to heart talk. updates and stuff.

at home, only parents were at home, the rest went to aunts house. PET POT PET POT. BISINNNNG. you called. (= happy. STUPID PHONE. waited. ter tido. woke up at pizza, and waited a lil longer. sleep back.

SSS are darrlings!
old members are DEARIES!
FOREVER dearies. LOVE YA'LL LOADS!

GATHERING!

2006-05-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

20th may 2005. funfunfun.
i shall blog tomorow! taahs. (X

kaki LEMBIK

2006-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

Cedar Girls' Annual Cross Country is OVER!

i wore my adidas shoes. didnt feel all hyped up about the running part though. but im glad i made it all the way! the darrlings except lyana of course, got top 80! BRAVOOO =DD it would be a miracle if i did.

started off with amira and maisarah. followed amira. well, i TRIED to follow her. too fast. tired. lazy. slowed down and jog then walk. then i felt like shitting. SERIOUS SERIOUS. met lyana at the steepest slope. enjoying herself ahh, seeing people run.

you know what touched my heart? when was running in the macritchie compound towards the finishing line. the row of NPPC and NCC girls. =D the increased my semangat so much! first person was dian. then i remember seeing natalie. hazwani. cheryl. OHH! the juniors. hafizah, nabila. MUCH THANKS GUYS!

go husna!
cmon youre reaching alr!
go KAK husna!

OH, BEST. i love love YARA. she was like,
husna, dont look at the slope.

=D the best encouragement although her face was all and super serious. then i heard this familiar LOUD voice. NURIN. GO HUSNA! RUN ALL THE WAY! SPRINT. then i started zooming down. overtaking all those almost reaching. HAHA.
NO POSITION though.

WAY TO GO 3N! 3rd place! Congrats to the six representing our class, FELICIA SIM, FELICIA GOH, MAGDALENE, NURIN, JAMIE, JESSIE! 3H got 1st, as expected. Darshini emerged champion individual runner, completing the 3.2km within about 15 min.
*CLAPS!!

we went to town. and we wonder. when we order the the malay waiters in ENGLISH. WHY, WHY must they answer back in malay? WHAT IF, we just look malay but are not MALAY?

at home, i was so tired. i slept. lepak like dunno what. DEEP SLEEP. SYIOK beb.

yeah, i understand the fact that what she said sounds rebelious. but when someone say it out of anger she doesnt really mean it. in the heat of the moment anything can be said and done out of raging emotions. she's still learning. you have to step up a step and understand her position and not just shoot with such insulting and horrendous words.

it makes me sad just hearning you say such things. you tell her to think bfr she speaks. what about you?! did you think what sort of effect it might have upon her? she is still in the stage of growing up. still immature. with such nasty angsty words, you think she can understand the positiveness it has??

no way. i know you are trying to tell us to take care of the words we speak so that people wont get hurt because of what we said. but what about us? what about her? what about me?! i hurts and even you dont know it. yeah, practical. SOWHAT. all this while, last time, you know, i dont cry and say all the sorrys beacuse it hurts physically. but the scoldings and hurtful words are what i cannot absolutely take. the words pierce though sharper and harder.

silent. SHH.

SMILE(=

2006-05-18T07:29:00.000-07:00

today had TWO photo taking sessions. 3N we HAVE to work better on this. everything was just a fake front HUH.

MLDDS hectic. then arm wrestle with amira, elle and isadora. amria lembik. actually its because she ddint use correct part of the arm to push. she has been using her wrist thats why i can still feel she didnt put much effort.

elle power seh. but i still managed to slam her hand down. but because they wanna see me go down they made me arm wrestle with ISADORA. BADMINTON PLAYER. wow. BRAVO BRAVO! =

she won, of course.

went to bedok area. i need to teach amira the art of putting up a bold front when MATS are around because she keeps wanting to leave the place or go away whenever those people like hang around near. be brave my dear!

in the end SSS met up together at KFC. while waiting i made designs of our future jumpers. drew out those baggy jumpers and wrote each name at the back like those u see on a jersey.
i want i want!!

we started slang-ing. LYANA started it off.
taa taa my darrlings!
i like, cant stop talking like this. omg! im so enjoying this.

MACAM ITIK!

all in a day's fun for us. (=
cross country tomorrow. GOOD LUCK HUSNA! malas ah nak lari..

ANYONE

2006-05-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

" anyone who,
can TOUCH YOU
can HURT YOU
or HEAL YOU.

anyone who,
can REACH YOU
can LOVE YOU
CAN love me
or LEAVE YOU
CAN leave me "

ANYONE.
even you guys.

even you.

reminiscing the past yet again

2006-05-17T06:53:00.000-07:00

you should really keep a diary. in the near future you would want to one day, flip through the pages of your life in the past and laugh or cry about it. and today, i found out i keep NUMEROUS diaries. and it looks like each book was for one year. one book was since 2004 and only on the few occasions do i write in all of em.

i THINK i wrote this 'poem' in secondary two, last year.
"i opened myself
to let you in.
You settled in me
And left, creating a sin.

A second life
boils deep inside.
Tears rolled down;
but no time to cry.

I take this openly;
this feeling, GOD'S gift.
But seeing you in me,
reminded me of him."

and a caption was written at the bottom; BUT ITS NOT ABOUT BEING PREGNANT!
i think i vaguely remembered showing this to someone, forgot who though. but yeah, i remembered her saying that it sounded as though i had pre-maritial sex. WHOA. but no, the 'thing' that settled in me was a FEELING. a kind of emotion! not a CHILD! jeez.

tuesday
people started cmmenting on my new spectacles
EVA said: husna, wassup with the whole new MINAH look?
wow like ive never heard THAT before

everything sucked yesterday
i didnt feel good
HAH
maybe its all up in this SOTONG head of mine
like ANYBODY cares

after school had ELDDS
lilin wanted to do heart-to-heart talk with us
and somone saidshe was going to cry
but she didnt

coach serena dug up the truths about being students
in cedar, in singapore from us
like she can do anything about it
but it's nice she wanted to know

yesterday's session was different
no more STAND UP AND MOVE!
more of using eyes and mind to watch theatre performances

went back by bedok interchange
1 hour lecture by my dad
whatever he said wasnt new to my ears
so i got bored
and kept rocking back and forth

amira called me
yada yada yada yada
got photo taking
SAD. MMmmmMmm

wednesday
short OK day.
no lessons unless you count the group discussion lesson

had drama performances whole of before recess
MACBETH
do i love thee?
HAHA i cant do SUCH lit text
too CHIM

EVA PERFORMED DURING BUZZ@CANTEEN!
soo cool!
i dunno what part she playing
but she played the electrical guitar
FUUHYOH beb. jealous gue.

emath. MR TAN didnt come in until like last 5 mins.
went to watch coach carter during english
" you will get respect from me until you abuse that respect "

YADAYADAYADA
phototaking at three
sec threes rawk. =DDDDD

mamam at LJS paya lebar
go home
american idol: elliot's open arms touched my heart. taylor's you are so beautiful brought tears to my eyes. im not kidding. i TEARED. not CRY. TEARED. because i was thinking and listening to the lyrics. i can be moved JUST LIKE THAT.

RABAK.

2006-05-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

lessons went on as usual, sadly.

chem praticals are nice. titrations.

working with ACIDS and alkalis.

additional maths was additionally DULL.

math paper in fornt of me.

i continued to read the CINTA ABADI underneath.

SS/HIST was socially interactive.

trying to hear magdalene actually laugh.

cos she laugh no sound.

after school me and mai collected our specs.

and now i owe lyana, mai and amria $10 EACH.

but, thank you for helping darrlings!

ate a KFC.

we tried to ban amira from her WATER DRINKING SPREE

but she drank HALF already when she hasnt even finish her masshed potato!

DASYAT beb.

so lyana made a deal

if amira doesnt say KENYANG in the middle of her meal

we will return her beloved coke.

if she does, HAHA, BURP BURP BURP.

oh then, she said kenyang.

and lyana BURP!

fuuh, that just does it for amira.

suddely she got an idea

out comes her radio handphone.

pluck in the earphones and
KENYANG KENYANG KENYANG KENYANG KENYANG

clever amira, clever.

budden, lyana counted.
HABIS AHH.
5 BURPS for cik nur amira bte razali.

ohh, then I tried to help amira

if she can FINISH her whole meal, lyana wont do burps.

tapi, mai ngan lyana tak kasi

so instead, we give amira 50% discount on BURPS.

so it was 3.5 Burps.

the 0.5th oe i dunno how she gna do it

but she gna do it anw.

BLA BLA BLA

i started wearing my specs

felt weird

lyan aboasted about having perfect vision

HMPH!
then she started to hyper ventilate over DOUGIE

AGAIN.

took 60 home.

here's the story.

i love our MALAY MATS.

anooying big tak sedar diri goons

but they are super cheeky i cant stand it.

66 came first. then u know what one of then did?

pergi tolong the driver park depan the stop.

like the airplane people know they wave their arms back anf forth?

yeah

LAME.

then 60.

they stood outside the doorway like ushers.

sekali they took THAT 60 and i was ALR sitting at the back.

SIGHS.

SURROUNDED!

luckily the mat that was beside me was not the MOST GATAL one.

NASIBBB

they were randomly talking to this uncle behind me.

uncle eat alr? just got back from work ah. ahh.

crap like that.

then they attacked this miniskirt malay girl

awak awak awak

eh AWAK awak awak

awak jgn gini lah
eh eh dier senyum tu

alah alah MANIS NYE

flirt flirt flirt

then suddenly.

ME.

eh yang dudok sebelah halim tu CUTE ah

hHehHAHahHAEHEHeh
cute cute cute.

alamak...

continued gatal-ing with the girl

while doing this they are always like talking to the driver like

AH AH uncle uncle drop here STOOOP ah, auntie wanna go down

then the mat beside me

AISH uncle nie
gini nak gi woodlands pun tahun depan tak sampai

nasib baek berhenti pat bedok reservoir

i couldnt help it so i giggled.

then the malay girl almost reach her bustop

the MAIN MAT
nie nak gi maner nie
nak gi rumah kawan
eh nak ikut boleh?
HAHA, ah ah dah takot dah kan dier.

ah ah kan. NAAAkal dier eh
kan mak dah bilang jgn talk to strangers

HAHA

then the girl dropped down at her stop.
uncle uncle stop here ah yahh, stop here

my grepen wanna go down

REWIND

oh got one part the MAIN MAT asked

ader kakak?
takder?

ader abang?

takder? bagus. kalau ader takut ah nak kacau

nanti abng gangster plak

FORWARD

then i dropped down at MY stop.

umm.. adek balik tu balik terus ehh

jgn merayap. gi lepak bawah blok sumer..

im like, HAHAHA

yes mr, i SHOULD SOO listen to some random mat EH.

in my head i was like, DAH MERAYAP DAH PUN!

shits

2006-05-14T03:04:00.000-07:00

i woke up. fixed myself cheesy omelette. ate it. watched hollywood bollywood. went madrasah. it was superboring. i felt like dying. i hope tomorrow is a better and more fun day. i really really hope so. im rotting here. on the inside.

so, tomorrow is going to be specs collecting day. HEH. im so looking forward to my new image. (x

i should just stop thinking.

2006-05-13T07:06:00.000-07:00

i bruise easily; so be gentle when you handle me
i bruise easily; there's a mark you leave like a loveheart carved on a tree

thinking makes me crazy. i get myself all stressed up just by thinking some shitassed nonsense. i create a stupid situation in this muddled up head of mine and i actually become afrais it might happen i real life. but these situations i create are quite reasonable and are possibilities.

i feel weary this few days. so i write. i write so i dont keep EVERYTHING bottled up inside me. then i read my previous entries. i felt like breaking down. so much stuff happened already. up till now. SIGHS.

lets not be all depressing now. CIP was fun! leenaa, the hot babe, and me, just the babe(= had so much fun to day walking up and down orchard road. Ouuh Lala! Flag Day is really a chore, no doubt about that. you cant expect us to stand outside the mrt asking people for donations all day do u? of course not, so what do we do? WINDOW SHOP! yummeh

first stop was famous amos. i bought myself butterscotch chips & pecan. then we OOUUHED and AAAHED over the perfumes and make ups. then TOPSHOP. the clothes were SEXAAY. the bags were so tempting. and the accessories! SIGHS, too bad no money.

so many freebies were given out along the sidewalk. we collected like, 2 balloons, a free green tea drink, tissue and took pictures with cartoon characters! we even had free entertainment from a 6 year old boy, ethan ong, who played drums like a PRO. SUHHWEET.

then we went to HEEREN, heaven for teenagers like me. i LOVE LOVE flash and splash. we went up to 77th street and i inflicted pain upon my ear. it felt both satisfying and regretful at the same time. im just not myself.

oh when we walked at the underground tunnel, guess who i saw? DIAN! (= so coincidental, then of course i asked her for donation. andi must give her creds!
THANK YOU DIAN! for your generosity of S$1!

guess who else we saw? a whole group of those bananas. sadelana saw khalis. she pointed. i saw zul then xuanhan. then we patah balik and i poked xuanhan on the back and extort out money from him. HEHEH. we were begging ah. SO,
THANK YOU XUANHAN! for your generous amount of S$1.20! and thank you also for the rest who stood at the escalator and NOT DONATING. )X

all in all i had a fun day today. compared to yesterday, which was down right depressing. SIGHS.

i think i am a bulletproof glass
you shoot me
i do not break, just crack and
leaving a mark.

im scared

2006-05-12T03:52:00.000-07:00

IMAGINEseeing through the eyes of a girl
this girl was holding hands with her love
then her friend mocked her
her dad standing behind her friend
and her love just lets go
he went away, disappears
leaving her alone
her fren beat her
followed by her dad
not approving of what she is doing
she is covered in slashes
she is covered in tears
she runs away
another friend saw her
and ran after her to keep her down
she finds a spot and hides
she thinks
and thinks
and thinks
her friends wasnt her friends anymore
her dad was unreasonable
but most of all she was hurt
hurt that her love left her
suddenly she was holding a sharp object in her right hand
she does nothing
then she looks down on her left wrist
there was blood
ALREADY

she wakes up to real life
realise she cried along with the dream
she continued to cry
afraid
she is afraid;
i am scared

credits to me!

2006-05-09T19:34:00.000-07:00

there's no school today. im going out with the darrlings later and i havent told my parents yet. NICE. but i did mention SOMETHING to my mom. i said; ma, do u have 50bucks now? i gonna buy my specs later.

im starting the CINTA ABADI book alr. the previous book was a hit on the face. it teaches that your first love can REALLY NEVER be forgotten. even then, you cant always hope for it or hold on to those memories. and if a sincere love comes by dont reject it, because you may not immediately feel for him, but your love will grow for him.
so the story goes. kekasih pertama seri bersama zul. tetapi banyak halangan membuat mereka terpaksa berpisah. namun, kasih sejati dan cinta ikhlas azlan menyambut seri. seri tetap keliru kerana sayangnya terhadap zul masih membakar di dalam hatinya. tapi, dia terpaksa berkahwin dgn azlan supaya keluarganya gembira. BLAHBLAH. jealousy, sad, happy. in the end, seri tetap setia dengan azlan dan dia menutup buku, kisah cinta dia dan zul.

WUHOO.
i will go to bedok library today and return the freakishly overdue books.
i edited my blogskin. the template is strictly mine! i made it and im so proud. HEH.

should i wear kurta or double shirt??

girl power!

2006-05-09T06:23:00.000-07:00

i feel super patriotic to womenkind today. i think lyana might have spread her feminism aura to me. to the men/boys/guys out there, not ALL of us may be physically strong, that i agree, but NEVER NEVER deny our emotional and mental strength. (:

So, what, am I not supposed to have an opinion?
Should I keep quiet just because I AM A WOMAN?
Call me a BITCH cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
...
If you look back in history it's a common DOUBLE STANDARD of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a WHORE
I don't understand why it's okay,
...
You're just a LITTLE BOY
Think you're so cute, so coy
You must TALK SO BIG to make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you do is ANNOY
You must talk so big to make up for smaller things
...

that's that. the previous post was stupid. LAME. dont see. monday, i only remembered after school activities. 2N05' had their dance practice. and the np girls were just shakin it. and then we finally got it out of maisarah to tell us. then we proceded down for MLDDS.

jannah and me are the coordinators. BUT i still anticipate for a no CCA day. there was NO ONE in the class. so we put out bags anyway and went off to the canteen. and so yesterday was the first time maisarah and amira drank the homemade lime by auntie lily after spending at least 2 years here in cedar! DASYAT.

then we went ot the staffroom to confirm with cikgu. and me and mai apparently called at the same time! heh. then laugh laugh laugh. so only 1 sec one came and most sec 2s and threes came. overall quite fun although nothing was organized and we did the same thing as the previous two weeks.
sec threes are supposed to put up a performance for buzz@canteen THIS THURSDAY! i can dangerously say we are not prepared but HECK, it would be some performance i bet. so we practiced dikir and some of us made some BIGBIG plans which all of us are veryvery excited about, if it would happen.

we finished late. ended at like 5.45pm. oh, and elyana did something evil on purpose. WHOOPS.
then i cannot remember.

tuesday, amira's face was super sulky in the morning. OBVIOUS nah. oh and i finished the malay book i borrowed.
kubawa cintamu dimana kupergi meskipun ia bukan milikku.
nice huh. im really into these jiwang books. nothing can beat malay language in romance. even english cant have theright, or perfect word to say or desribe.

oh and sss was super hyper today. just as i like it. crappy and full of laughter. but really teruk ah, baek jugak u people nampak the longkang. ingatkan main sampai tak ingatkan dunia seh.
oh, and omar is making me hear the drum in blink 182 songs.

it is superb, i agree. the beats are awesome. i wish i could even LEARN any drum beat. the only beats im already good at is GENDANG-ON-THE-TABLE beats. (: we rawk at that.
no school tomorrow. YAY.

treasure.

erase!

2006-05-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

to those that read the previous post. HECCK. it was out of anger. i was pissed. i was raging with all sorts of different emotions. why, i guess its right when they say, husna is too sentimental.
MAYBE.

tears fall like rain droplets
as the sky cast its shadows
the girl's sorrow is overlooked
her tearstained cheeks masked

imagine her curling on her bed
as if breathing and sleeping soundly
the darkness of the room overwhelming
as she sobs and stain her sheets

clouds of smoke circling
teasing her zone of comfort
what was once seemed harmless
grew dangerous inside of her

i found this somewhere. if you are clever, and know me well to be my TRUE TRUE friend. you will know where(=
tag me and guess please!

2006-05-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

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2006-05-06T06:31:00.000-07:00

my mood is going up and down up and down these past few days. and it happens quite often like my sleepy head during amath lessons. uncontrollable ragging hormones!
thurday and friday were nice.

thursday
amira called me the night bfr telling me someone wanted to go out with me today. but i was sitting on the fence or standing or hanging. whatever. HELLO?! exams. does that word explain everything? i think it does. i went out anyway since saya rindu juga.

she made us run 4 rounds around the small track. for crosscountry. WTH. running is warm up. WOW =0 then we did floorball, again. she's still teaching us to handle the ball, running up and down the volleyball court. the sun was scorching hot. there was not a spot missed on my body by the swet. it was super super super sticky.

jogging was next. when they announced that jogging will resume for the secthrees, everyone sighed. you could feel the wave of disappointment. so, the enviromental factors was bad enough, pe was bfr jogging and now, JOGGING?! we didnt even have enough strength to eat MEE SOTO. i managed to dig out a few coins to but me 100plus and HtwoO.

i was panicking in the morning having no money and i was gng out. i woke my dad up in the morning to ask him for my usual two day allowance, but it was upstairs and i was alr late so i din take any. but then i thought, hey, without money means go without food. without food means, i dont eat! so it was a winwin situation since im on an onoff diet. (:

so, imagine. you are all sticky and you're perspiring from head to toe. you stink. you feel drained and the weather isnt helping at all. then you didnt eat because you had no strength. AND THEN, your last common test. EMATH COMMON TEST was next period. how do you go about the situation?
BEDAL AH.
it was damn frustrating. i DID NOT complete the paper. i lost SO MANY marks. and the previous tests, i passed borderline. therefore, if i fail this test, i suppose, i fail emath for mid year. i dunno to laugh hysterically or cry.

3N is hopeless romantics. i love them. because i am a hopeless romantic. a walk to remember, need i say more? the most sweet, innocent, sincere young love story you can ever watch.

i took 66, alighted and took 87. i was late. i was approached by th emost unexpected people. sufie. nabila and nuri were with her. and i was asked by the most funny question. it was funny because she's asking such a question and look who was coming my way to meet me.

i treasure every moment spent. even the quiet and silent moments. the noisy,talkative moments. the teasing moments. even the short moments as we take a bus ride home. (=

APPARENTLY, my two sayang DARLING friends dak takde kerje. so, they find work. BUT sadly for them they couldnt even see when when we were at the same place at the same time!
KFC Bedok. BECAUSE, they envisioned a BLUE girl. unfortunately my friends, i was wearing my ROXY jacket therefore blinding their sight from my uniform(=
and OH, brazil converse sports collection. JEALOUS!

friday
the weather was a total opposite from the day before. it was MUCH MUCH cooler. i went to for dental during 2nd period missing social studies. the nurse kept using the word NAUGHTY on us. HELLO. we are secondary school students, TEENAGERS. please dont use NAUGHTY, its so lame. LAMEEE. maybe the kids in cedar primary affected her range of vocabulary words on us. it only took me like 2 min with the nurse.

she complimented my teeth! 2nd year in a row. =DD
your teeth desrve a trophy!
thats what she said. SMILES. but i still wana go for whitening. uh huh.

i was due for an appointment at 2.30 at bedok. and i was 30mins late. FINE. SOMEONE had to finger me how late i was. PFFT. so i learned that the purpose for him asking me out was because he wants to buy me the bag ive been rattling about. thank you thank you so much. BUT, he didnt manage to because i spoilt his whole niat. HEH.
then, at night i felt bad. sorry. but thank you anyway for actually noticing what i wanted. i really appreciate the thought. AND DONT TWIST MY WORDS MR!

i wouldnt say i got CAUGHT. i would say, i coincidentally was seen by a few people. his cikgu (selamat to you on that one), kak khalis, kak shaniza, farahzlin, and maisarah's mom. and i just received news that isa saw us in the mrt and he thought i was TAOing him. we were at TAMPINES. need i say more?

talked to XUANHAN at night. didnt talk much. wasnt as talkative was i? sorry. then my mother scolded me and i had to hang up.

saturday
i slept alot today. all thats on the television today is, ELECTIONS. surprise, surprise.
how exciting. WUUHOO. =
i had DAIRY chocettes.
MEE SOTO.
donuts.
and i made my own breakfast this morning cause everybody else woke up earlier and ate evrything up.
SIGHS.

MY BRAIN IS NOT WORKING.
SORRY MR.

(:

2006-05-03T00:07:00.000-07:00

on sunday. have i blogged about this day? gosh i cant remember. well, this would be 2nd telecast if the 'live' version have been published. anyhow, all remembered was that sunday was an awful guilty awesome day.

guilty and awful were its after effects of what ive done. i chatted with the owner of the rotten cabbage in the morning then went off for religious classes as per normal. boarded 21 at the rainbow bustop and saw natashah at the other side of the road at the next bustop. so she missed the earlier bus. but guess who boarded the bus instead? HAIDAR.
i remembered thinking; this guy looks familiar. then i think my brain had to extort files from the internet brain cells cos i recognize the guy who was walking towards the back of the bus from friendster pictures. the wonderful uses of the ever time wasting, FRIENDSTER. love it.

i dropped at a bustop before masjid khadijah where 7eleven is. and bought a top-up card although i dont see a purpose of wasting my idiotic eighteen singapore dollars since i cant use it that much anyway. well, not that i see a purpose in anything that i did nowadays anyway. SO, ANYWAY, all around me were bundles and bundless and shelves of JUNK and CHOCOLATE.

see a tip: you can just buy for husna ONE ferrero rocher and she will be on cloud nine. OR anything chocoletey.
her heart desires to feel that sweet warmth surrendering their lives to her welcoming taste buds and to put a smile on her face. her heart desires for him too):

im on a donteat campaign which is not going well for me cos my friends who care for me so much and cant bear to see me not eat manage to pujuk me that i end up eating ALOT in a day. so yes, i didnt buy anything even though i had the singaporedollars in my wallet. madrasah was dull. i slept. then BLAHBLAHBLAH madrasah ended. and i waited at the steps for my sister as per normal. the sec4 boys came down from their class and if u can imagine were in the MATiest of clothes. they gots them caps, them shirt, them tappered pants, even them slippers! oh, they gots them bags too.
but hey, im still a girl and i think some of them were good looking even how mat looking they were. but thats our malay mats!

so my father picked us up and he tells us we're going to my grandfather's house. go see him since he was at the hospital and stuff. went back to my block picked my maid, my mom and nur muhammad. then we buzzed off to his house at hougang. and i got excited cause they said we were gonna eat outside after that.

BUT at my granfather's house, they served us food! so we had to eat. so i ate and it was delicious mind you. ok so, nvm. after that we decided to go eat at swensens but since we alr ate, we decided to just have desert thr. but NOOO, i had to eat a meal. AND calamansi shurbet AND chocolate crunch!

see another tip: you can plaster a smile on my face just by treating me to any ice cream. you'll get a hug if u can buy the correct flavour! my favourite flavour!
im yearning for sticky chewy chocolate right now. or a boston nut brownie from coffee bean with vanilla ice cream on top topped with chocolate syrup. YUM. and im yearning for u)=

So there, thats when the guiltiness started to pour over me. im alr fat. and i ate ALOT.
i need to lose a few kgs then will i be happy. AND dont day excersice cos i have been excersicing more than usual these past few days ever since i stepped up onto that weighing scale and got the shock of my life.

on monday was another eating fest. and apparently SOMEONE with SOMEBODY went to the same place i did that day. LUCKILY, i didnt bump into you or well, nothing. you'd probably just be embarrased wouldnt you, MAISARAH?

anyway in the morning my father woke me and my sister up by tuning in to some tamil radio station and turning it out super loud. i just cant be bothered with his irritating antics and continued to dream. my sister got up switched it off and closed the door.

anw, when i finally decided to wake up the family is all ready to go eat macdonalds. so i had to rush. and these few days ive been obsessing over mascara and eyeliner so being in a hurry doesnt mean i had no time to apply those black wonders on my eye.

so went down to eat at macs and i had a big breakfast meal! then my dad just so happens to ask AGAIN, is anyone still hungry? i raised my hand and sighed and said but im fat.
then i think ive been complaining so much about my undesired weight gained that he 'shouted', youre not fat! you just have big bones. and ure lucky u have a nice bone structure.

i was like, oh really? thank you thank you, if thats the case, i was hotcakes! SO, another day of eating more than im supposed to began. i went to the airport and jalan2 thr. like serously walk around the place and take pictures like nobody's business. and i was walkign with my sisters, my auntie, uncle, and NENEK. wuuhoo.

my nenek rox man. she was crapping along and crapping with me. she actually pointed to this weird ugly old guy and said tu husna nyer byfren. WTH.

we ate at a food centre at some carpark. and i had banana smoothie. YUM.
(ironic thing is right now, im fasting and im talking about food all the way in this post) BRAVO!

tuesday. yesterday, went to bedok after school. ate at KFC. the library had a blackout and th was a kid stuck in the lift. anf we made frens with girls for bedok green because all of us wanted to witness the opening of the lift. HAHA

AND shouldve stayed on a little bit longer at the interchange. then at least some communication some talk SOMETHING could have stop me from missing you THAT MUCH.
its unbearable. and its pretty tiring. and lyana you're right.
WE SENT AT LEAST HALF OF OUR LIVES JUST WAITING.

waiting.
i keep on waiting patiently.
faithfully.

'keep the faith. trust,'

HIGH(=

2006-04-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

27/4

sunday i ate alot. i feel fat. its terrible. BOOHOO.
im going out to eat now. going airport. HAIK. TO EAT.

takde kerja day.

2006-04-29T03:05:00.000-07:00

friday
was
BORING!

after school we evaluated 3H's execution thingy. NARMADHA CAN COOK!
YUMMEH(: she made me love VEGE with her dish. her potato pancake was nice. and even her orange juice which wasnt spose to be evaluated was NICE! haha. sarah was like, ' asal kau selalu kat sini?' NVM. i love my 3H and their YUMMEH foodies.

when school was dismissed we ran down for the HOME EC. room but mrs woo apparently shooed a couple of them away cos we were 'disturbing' them. so after filling our stomachs without having to cash out any money, HEH, the 2N05' started practicing for their BUZZ@CANTEEN. COMICAL! CARTOON!

their moves were so THEM. amira and me watched them for a while. I MISS 2O05' MALAY MEMBERS. honestly, i never thought i would rindu last years class but I DO! i'll be waiting for that VESAK DAY reunion girls! where are we going anw? update me!

so after school me and amira were having a GIRLFREN'S conversation. STRICTLY girls only. then went to juice station. i love that shop. before you enter it you can start smelling the fresh, distinct, healthy scent from the MANYMANY fruits and VEGE they have there. although i still wonder why they set up one of their shops in a QUITE ULU area where the money made will probably only come form us cedarians, thank gawd they are there!

the service there is friendly. i took my time to decide and the guy thr just waits. so i chose ice blended SOURSOP. then it started to drizzle just abit and me and amira are still on our girl talk. we ended up taking 154 and took the mrt to bedok.
WE REALLY HAD NOTHING TO DO.

NOTHING!
so we walked around bedok centre. looking OUT. not looking FOR. LOOKING OUT. then went to the library to soak in some of the COLD AIR. then i went looking for malay romance novels while amira went to use the internet service.

i went to the loo and amria came out with my bag saying she was fed up cause thr were acouple of mats making noise an running about like nobody's business. IDIOTS. apperently thr were these minahs in damn short skirt which i felt like screaming at them why do u even wear a skirt when u could just have ur undies on and it wouldnt make a diff?

haikk. the world nowadays. yeah so thse mats were chasing aft thse minahs. IRRITATING. then we went to walk twrds KFC. LOOKING OUT! haha.

then we walk back go bedok interchange. as per normal, i had to wait until 26 comes for amira then i can go home. sat at the railings.

BLAHBLAHBLAH

at night my father made us sisters watch this DEBATE OF THE CENTURY. the topic was a religious topic.
IS THE BIBLE GOD'S WORD?
pencadang- REV. jimmy swaggart (christianity)
pambangkang- ahmed deebat (islamic)

it was pretty alright. my sister slept on the couch and my fatehr actually sent her off to bed! CHEATER. i kept dozing off on the other sofa and my dad FARTS. F.A.R.T. to keep me awake cos the smell SUCKED. it was almost 11pm alr then like me and my sis dowan to get off out butts to amek wudhu then my fatehr started his kung fu antics.

and when we fight. its for real. i punch and kick him hard FOR REAL. he punches and kicks back for real. he puts strength into it but not so much. BUT THERE IS STILL FORCE. so he repeatedly punched my arm like it was a punching bag or something. and his face is all scrunched up like those real boxer. ACTION LAH KONON. then i shouted at his face
INGAT TAK SAKIT KAPE.

then he stop.

and attack my sister next. then i rammed him onto the kitchen tabletop. and hide inside the toilet. MUAHAHA.
REWIND to around 7+

my babybrother. cute. adorable. HANDSOME. HOT. strong. HANDSOME. botak.
HE SLOBERS. can flood. he sucks his thumb which we dont encourage him to do I DUNNO WHY. so whenever he tries to put his thumb into his mouth my father stops him then like beats lightly his hand then slap him LAH!

I WAS SO ANGRY. i was 'handcuffing' his hand from moving anywhr near my brother. but he put up a fight so i had to be strong and i fought back. he twist his hand so that my hand was twisted and he squeezed my veins. i said
PANDAI EH. ATTACK URAT. JAPJAP, IM LAUGHING TAK KUAT.

then he lets go i compose my strength and he immediately strated 'slapping' my bro again. i pushed his hands away and i SLAPPED MY DAD's cheeks. BOTH. WUHHOOO!

the fighting goes on until my maid decides to save my bro because he needs his milk(:
LALALA

ok, im chatting now. that was friday.
TODAY IS SATURDAY. the whole day was a boring day. entertaining people online. since afternoon until NOW(: i enjoy making people happy even if it takes me looking/sounding stupid just to put a smile on their faces, i dont mind(=

the whole world just came to my house to watch football. MANU VS CHELSEA. apparently, chelsea thrashed manu 3-0. uh huh.

i need to make someone smile now. i think u know who u are. HAHA.

(:

2006-04-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

patience is truly a virtue. kesabaran akn sentiasa diuji. sentiasa.
so 27/4 is a really nice day. i think i talked alot!

had history first period. had to do some SEQ but as per normal, i didnt quite complete it. then PE. ran three rounds. i thought one round i was superr happy but NO, she had to +2 to it. then mother tongue did surat rasmi. i wrote CRAP.

then thr was no jogging cos they used that periosd for pupils who wanted to retest their NAPFA. so we changed into uniforms and amira wanted to just hang at the back of the block.

OH YAH
RAINBOW(: in the morning cos it was quite hot and it was raining.

ANW, we sat and lyana storytold about her UNCLE. SECAREE. went down for recess. i spent only 30cents! SOYABEAN BAYBEH.
then RAN. they RAN for the rasa sedap stall cos today got MEE SOTO. the hafizah was like pointing to them and telling me, "YOUR FRENS".
yesyes, as whacky and crazy as they may be, I LOVE THEM(=

then had english got back report writing. then TWO periods of CHEM. MARKER FACED mr tan!
heh. i did badly for chem even thought i passed. BAH. so packed quickly, and said our goodbyes to the class and luck to lyana and we went to 3h.

amira changed cos she sayd our uniform is obvious. WHICH IS TRUE. people can recognize a cedarian from a MILE away. exaggeration but u get the idea. we missed the first 154. so we were pretty DEAD. and LATE.
amira and me took mrt. and we walked really really FAST. mai took 28 cos she only had coins.
then when he reach the plc whr we were spose to meet them. they werent there.

i got scared. but i obviously didnt show. lols. i was super calm ON THE OUTSIDE.
BUGIS BK. 7.
66(: so cute.

ilu.
<3

NEWW BLOG(:

2006-04-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

hellos. new skin. new add. newNewNEW!
cant wait for tomorrow(:

i went home early todae. SHOCKING. i reached home at 2.30pm.
i was shocked myself. went to the juice station bought bananahoneyyogurt.
YUMMEH.
shall blog everyday now that my computer is working like MARVELOUSLY.
happyhappyhighhigh.althought for the past few days i havent been so joyful.
i shall be my normal optimistic HUSNA.
who's hus?

IAMHUS!

FIRST WEEK 2006

2006-01-07T19:23:00.000-08:00

First week of 2006 is basically, first week of school lah. Mai was sick on the first week of school, made her laugh and sidetrack her mind abit, she's alright in the end and at shrooms burger after school.
First say of school, alot of talk from teachers. Like, what they expect and stuff. And 3N, we'll rawk your eyeballs out. LOL. Look at our class, the faces, got tao ones got guai ones, got KENTAL ones, like me! 2nd day of school is alright. Still not much schoolwork done and MAISARAH volunteered herself as secretary.
After school, sss, except lyana went tamp and ate at this new place for us. the popiah is nice but amira had to consume it as though it was like a fear factor for her. FUNNEH. then they wanted cekak, wrapping paper to wrap ther files and as it turned out, both got the EXACT same thing. and well, AMIRA, MAISARAH. what do get? CAT FIGHT! haha
oh yea and our eyeballs were like at attention. and there were many many ribbets around. lol.
thursday, was my turn at being sick. vomitted thrice before recess. one in malay class where lyana teman-ed me. another on the way back from mly class. another before going for pe where amira rubbed my back. lol.haikk.
after school went to the kedai mamak near my place and ate loads of stuff. and where we found the mystery PRATA PISANG. and i could have sworn the people there were STARING at us. like we belonged more to the LJS, KFC, that kinda places. hey, good food? we'll just raid the place. RIGHT? x)
Friday, had assembly and the new principal, mrs oae yang, izzit? lol i dunno, gave us like a review of 2005. and like every other year the most unfavourable is always the sec threes. so i think us, sec threes this year, may be the batch with a more enlightening opinion. lol.
after school had MLDDS and mai me and amira met three sec ones in ML room. on eof them name, HUSNA. cool huh. haha
oh yea sss is aka yumeius. wakaka

deeper
closer
ciao!

YOU'RE TAGGED?

2005-12-21T05:30:00.000-08:00

Post 5 weird/random facts about yourself. At the end, list 5 people (im doing MORE) who are to do this next. Leave a comment that says 'YOU ARE TAGGED' in their blog and tell them to read yours.

Fact One
I used to be suicidal. Yes. Tried to, you know, like twice.

Fact Two
I am sentimental. I dont have the heart to throw away stuff. Like, it means at least SOMETHING to me. Even if it doesnt, I will at least be able to look back at it as a chapter that was in my life.

Fact Three
I sleep with EVERYTHING on. Everything means, either the TV or radio. And DEFINITELY the sleeping light. I never, NEVER sleep without having a light to keep me company through the dark. The TV, i will set a timer on it. Like an hour or so. The radio keep it on to 987fm and then somewhere during the night my father or mother will come and switch it off.

Fact Four
I cry almost EVERYDAY before I sleep. Be it because I am happy or I have been hurt somewhen in the day. Before I sleep because, I think and wonder about stuff in my life.

Fact Five
I AM NOT STRAIGHT! I AM A LESBIAN! *winks How can I be right? Well, I used to think about being a lesbian because I seriously gave up on BOYS. At that point of time, BOYS just sucks to me. Perangai macam taik. WHOOPS. Maaf kepada kaum adam. Not anymore <3
And CURRENTLY, I am FEMALE. I am a GIRL. And I am, HUSNA.

amira
maisarah
lyana
idah

VAVAVOOM

SSS outing!

2005-12-21T03:38:00.000-08:00

Today was an extremely enlighting day for THEM and refreshing one for ME. Refreshing, because I've been stuck at home for the past few weeks and it sucks. Enlighting, because TRUTH OR DARE. Bahh, yall know yourselves. Took 31 all the way to Marine Parade from Tampines. Told Mai how kental we have progressed to become since the beginning of the year. And YES, we have gotten REALLY kental. YAY.

I am really tired. Shall update next time.
imfallinghardforyou <33

ROAR

2005-12-19T22:37:00.000-08:00

I could have updated but i have no clue as to what to update. Holidays are about to come to an end and I think I should make the most of it but I think most of it will be occupied by the amount to idiotic homework given. BAHH. The holidays is, like everytime I complain, BORING. BUT recently, alot have happened which flickered a huge amount of light and happiness. HEH. But lately also, I have been given alot of insults, scoldings and nagging. BAHH. Should be normal for me, but it hurts everytime I get it.
i may talk alot, but alot too i dont talk about.

SO everybody is back from their HOLIDAYS right? READY for another bloody SHORT year? Im not. NO LAH. IAM!! I cant wait for another crazy PRANKY SSS year!

waiting for tomorrow- cant wait!

PISSED

2005-12-01T01:46:00.000-08:00

ahhhh. there is something wrong with my blog. and its NOT my itchy fingers. the NAVIGATIONS on the left sucks. eeks. well, i did fiddle with it abit change position, make it NICER lar. then NOW. ARGH. im pissed. SUPER pissed right now.

what are u doing reading this? go pick up the phone and cheer me upp LAR. tsk.
nyehehs

YAYNESS

2005-11-30T03:43:00.000-08:00

my blog okayy already. weeehoo. i think i'll keep for a along long long TIME>BORED. all i can i say for now. AMAZING RACE STARTING SOON!

WATCH.

BEP

2005-11-29T21:22:00.000-08:00

my sister is absolutely in LOVE with the BLACKEYED PEAS. seriously. BUT the special thing is its WHICH sister. GUESSS.

ULFAH!
yes yes. the 1 year old one. she grooves to their song man. as in really JOGET. so what her sister so? I turned up the volume and dance also lah. and teach her some more MOVES. im SUCH a GREAT sister. WOWHEE.

husna is really bored u know. yes. husna as in this husna. SIGHHH. school's starting in a month's time. IM NOT READY! no books. no bag. no new pencil case. no EVERYTHING! haik haik haik
OOUUH. tonight got AMAZING RACE. must watch!

im so rooting for the Weavers Family. TOTALAY.

why are u reading this when u cna entertain me thru a call or msn?
HMM?!
hehs

dont fret it, you bitch

2005-11-29T00:38:00.000-08:00

yesterday was interesting, i guess. my nenek complains im going out too often. but see, she doesnt see that everytime i go out, it's different reason. like last week, it was camp so i bet it was fun for them that i wasnt home. and also there was the hari raya outing with YMC and cedarians. a CLASH that can never happen again. so yesterday was because amira asked me to go out.

i din know what was going to happen just that i was going to eat with amira, safiah and atiqah. but there's a catch as to why amira desperately wanted me to meet them cause then, *RINNNNG!

''husna, you have to help me later kayy
\\ help with what?
''just help lar, later i tell you. kay. KAY

*HUNG UP

i was practically dragged from TM MAC up to 4th level, LJS. and surprise surprise she tells me who they saw when we were on the 3rd floor.

\\ im in big booboo

4th floor she ddoesnt tell me ANYTHING and asked me to pass tix and money to SOMEONE. i was blur like SOTONG larrr. amira2, why couldnt you do it yourself? be brave, be bold!! anyway, it was pretty nooisy LJS. and i DO NOT. i repeat, DO NOT look like emma watson.

lets talk about last friday hari raya CLASH shall we?
so i wore a jubah. black jubah.
first house was safiah and we had nasi lemak. heavy breakfast! this time was with the cedarians. who: husna, amira, atiqah, safiah, jannah, sadel, yara, fadhil, dian, hazwani. after which was maisarah's hse. her nenek was at home. very rajin i must say. and i WILL NOT talk about amar. *eviiillll
there was, bubur LAMBOK?, mee kwayteow, kari eaten with bread on the table. laid out for us. laid out for us, GIRLS. i had serious SMS so i was pretty moody at the start of the whole day but it turned out well in the end. lyana's hse was next. her grandma was there too. but of course, her grandparents LIVED with her. so we had what you call, mee birthday. HAHA
safiah left us after that and we went on to sadel's house. very nice very nice. all that MAKE UP. it didnt have to come you know. so we moved on to syed's hse me, amira, jay, and atiqah while tthe rest went to fadhil's hse.
THATS when everything just SUCKED. hey this is my blog, i can say ANYTHING. hehs

i felt weird wen we suddenly stepped into syed's hse. felt as though we werent SUPPOSED to be there. atiqah felt much worse i presume. jannah started her too generous friendliness to his adik and cuz. i just felt like it was too overr. cause like we dont really know the family and stuff. so, AWKWARD.
then we gots stuck at the staircase landing waiting for the bus service book to be taken out of the JAMBAN- what nabil calls hani's bag. honestly i think her bag was quite NICE. got into the bus and DING DING DING, its happening. jaye says fadhilah is inviting us, as in YMC inclusiveness, to her house.

so now im thinking, WHY MAKE THE CLASH AND END UP FRETTING ABOUT IT? NEXT TIME, THINK TWICE.
i could honestly see the look on the YMC people's faces that they DIDNT want to go, obviously. its someone they dont even know and its interrupting the whole schedule, so called. but who'd say NO right? i mean, even i wouldnt. so we reached her house, and TENG TENG TENG, i dont want to say. but hey, i felt like i wasnt too rude or anything considering there were guys around. GOSH, i could their face going TENSE man. and what happened to faris, from what i heard, is so embarrassing! UGH. now see, what could their impressions be now? HMMM?!

on the way to jannah's house was funny. i guess we are LOUDHAILERS? nevermind.
we had the prawn fritters and jay's house. YAY! but of course, i loved it even though it wasnt crunchy no more. HAHA. whispers. whispers. whispers. HMMM. i wonder. dont need to wonder. i guess, i KNOW already huh. hehs. i guess i can be the bitch too sometimes. im not denying THAT fact. haha i remember. (mina ap) x))

the cedar people left. then the YMC left. then it was left to me, amira, atiqah and jannah. jannah HAD to to go to school. so her aunt drove us there and let me off at the main road for me to go watch HARRY POTTER and them to join the YMC people. so what i heard happened after i left was funny, and rude.

no, i dont care. x))

HARRY POTTER was a blast. though i HATED the ending cause i find it lame. but yes emma was HOT. rupert was blurrly funny and daniel is as always, courageous. cedric was hot. i DID NOT ADORE victor krum. i thougth he was boastily ugly. after the show my aunt and unc brought us somewhere for an ' EDUCATIONAL TOUR '
changi village was their headed desination. i was shocked. they soooo looked like GURLS. i mean. their legs, face NOT BOOBY, and everything. my aunt just gave up on me. HAHA

that's it, FOR NOW.
no hard feelings? WAKAKAKAKA

faithful

2005-10-25T23:32:00.000-07:00

in school now
am i giving away anything?

im talking to a long lost overseas friend
wow
thought he'd forgotten about me
guess not

x))

drastic drop

2005-10-23T14:48:00.000-07:00

i thought of changing this skin
but i felt the same way again
so i shall not change

wow
iv been long gone
bloody computer

how about starting with exams
i dont understand why it's there in the first place

ok fine
i did badly
but i do have a right to be pissed dont i?

i did not fail any one subject
but i did badly
my results ranges from
C6-B4

ONLY, ok!!

all im going to do now is wait
wait for,
1. the result of my stream
2. the arrival of the new baby
3. and get surprises
4. and maybe some answers

i can buka outiside with my friends now!
wheee
i didnt expect the word 'YES" to come out of my father's mouth
im supper hyped!

so last tuesday
after LTC [ dont wish to expand on this topic ]
i went ot geylang and met the crazy people
at mcdonalds

they've been there since 5?
and somone said
'nvm we'll stay here until they halau us'

i was really tired and pissed to have the mood to be chirpy
sorry guys
but it was kewl

and i guess no one knows yet
amazing

hey dad look at me
think back and talk to me
did i grow up according to plan?

do you thik im wasting my time
doing things i want to do
but it hurts whan you disapprove all along

and now i try hard to make it
i just want to make you proud
IM NEVER GONNA BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU

i dont fancy satying at home now
i got to know my mom will be at home for 3 mths for maternity leave
i definitely know its more responsibility for me

it sucks to be the eldest daughter
seriously

yeah i know im not up to standard
blah blah blah
fine
its all my fault
im to be blamed
fine
its me
me me me me me

FINE
GONG
im STUPID
im DUMB
im GONG
whatever

UGH
im not making any sense
GOOD
HAH

i should shut up more
actually i have been very quiet now adays
been observing
seen some stuff

i feel like i give more than i take
but hey thats me
love to make others happy

and i dont think its true
seeing how things are going around me
i guess anything can come up
may be a lie
white lie
a maybe
an estimated claim

my life is like a WHATEVER right now

hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you'l know

stay positive x)
and smile

hmm-

2005-09-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

wow

i feel like a dork
i feel dumb
i feel TOO NICE

husna is going to change
its going to be drastic so, get ready

i dont understand why i COULDNT cry when i was
talking to her

but after that
when i talked to amira
haha
i cried

GOSH
why whould i cry right?

THIS IS DUMB

lyana, my eyes wont be puffy
change of plans

aiyohhhh
why so the jiwangs arh husna??

tsk tsk
so not you
so disappointed!

where the girl who is Always bubbly?
what happened to the gurl who wud go to ends of the world to make
people who are low laugh?
OI!!
where are u minah??

*snaps back*

saturday
bloody interesting
sorry guys i didnt go with u all
i sunnguh the sedih
haha but i thought it was permanently cancelled
so i made other plans

YMC
i felt like i could be eaten with those bunch
they veh de rowdy

and wassup with the whole lights off and hiding thing huh?!
i am fearful of the dark
really

and irsyaad
thank u for showing me and amira the way
we could have really gotten lost
hahaha

and u are taller than before
whch means i have to look up even more
DOOFUS
join us next time for the gathering ok irsyaad?

if not i'll kill you
cekik u!
with the help of a stool
cos if not i cant reach

muahaha

no more awkward moments yar?

wow. what a birthday gift. x\

its been long

2005-09-15T16:01:00.000-07:00

ive never been posting

-

saturday
5 people celerating their birthdays together
we got a sticky chewy chocolate ad mocha ice cream cake
i gots a pair of converse flowery sneakers, another pair of shoes
, a roxy jacket of which i gots in advance and mathcing top and bottom

sunday
it was dumb
gosh i think all she ever does is sidetrack and continue talking
at times when im bored or sleepy, i do like it
but if goes on and on almost every week
it does makes me menyampah
its madrasah yerp
then my comp suddenly wants to cooperate
so i used it until like 11pm even though school start next day
then i gots two birthday wishes from both nadia and syarina
and i gots invited to join them group studying
at PPBK
they were having a conference
and i sebok2. so i joined their conference
and now i know why zafran keep long fingernails
and yes i love you too adilah
and i do remeber all of yall's birthdays!

monday
the whole day all i did was anticipate bout the group studying thing
then when finally school end ,
mai and amria went togetehr with me'
and i met rina and idah on the bus
and by the look of their faces
i knew they werent happy at all to see me
cos most probably they thought i was going to make
mai and amira
join us later on

when i said bye to mai and amira
theywere like 'eh they not following?'
nope
they going merayaping

went BK and saw nadia outside
and omar was sitting inside alone
and both didnt realize the other was there, i think
then we all sat down
and adilah and afan joined us not long after
and we started studying

and i would like to make one thing clear here
because i wasnt very happy about it during the group study
' yeah im from cedar. but could all of you all stop telling me
im smart and all that bull. cos i dont like it. as far as i am concerned
im just like you all. okay. '

gosh that might have sound bad but i have to state what i felt lar
anyway. then salleh came and the guys shifted to anotehr table
then nadia and me got hingry and couldnt concentrate anymore
so we ate
then when the boys finally wanetd to come sit with us again
nadia clumsily droped the coke she was holding
i dont know how it fell off the hand
seriously
but it made everyone laugh
and she can say "Alamak!! Malu, malu.. "
"auntie sorry. sorry. auntie sorry arhh.."

then tyhe guys sat on my left and the gals sat on my right
i was in the middle of both sides
so i could see what everyone was doing
haha and i gots the best view to take pics

it was really fun
and it was the first time i saw omar spoke so much
haha
sorry not insulting

then mai and amira walked past BK
cos they wanted to see SOMEONE
then idah said " eh ana thats your friends right"
i totally didnt realize
then the guys also turn to look
and amira said she got scared
and started walking in front faster

then those two gundoos went to buy me presents!!
wohooo
i love yall
SSS
a mat bag? right
but the bracelet is really nice
thanks

i went home earlier and bedok interchange was banjir!!
like my whole shoe got soaking wet
freak

tuesday
all four of us fasted
and after school we went to bedok library to study
guess what happened at bedok interchange
the non stop talking jibberish lyana and mai
saw someone they wouldnt want to see

i thought he was damn chautah
like yar
haha
u guys freaked it was sush and awesome sight

wednesday
lyana was the only one who fasted
afetr school we went bedok library again to study
and we got shusked by the librian because we laughed too loud
then mai and me shared this
delicious chocolate coated chocolate brownie which was hot
damn nice know..
then lyana and amira boughtdunno what at the 'pasar petang'

then we went home alr

thursday
so today is thursday
and tomorrow is my birthday

i want to go out after school
please come with me;;

im sitting in the comp lab.
and we are supposedly supposed to be going home now
un hum-

its more than just a crush
when will this be over or
will it continue?

2005-08-28T03:57:00.000-07:00

announcement!

i changed my blog add

take note

please and thank uu!

end of me?

2005-08-22T12:45:00.000-07:00

unfortunately for me,
i cannot go for the perth trip

and that's that

i dont think there's any other way

to change the ruler's mind

nevermind

there's always a next year right?

if there isn't

IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT

" if it's your luck, next year you go lah
unless you have another baby next year

then i dont know "

all i wanted to say was 'FYKE'
im more PISSED OFF rather than sad or disappointed
yeah sure

be active

ever think of how i felt?

how we felt?

i think its enough

yeah sure place all the burden on us

and u relax one corner keep on groaning
and complaining about being tired

then start your 'syarahan'
im tired

im tired

its not like i dont understand

i am not being unresonable

but look at it at MY point of view

look at it as a 13+ year old girl point of voew

look at it as an oldest sibling with 4 younger ones under her
point of view

look at it as a student's point of view

look at it as HUSNA's point of view

just try it

even if i am wrong

and u are right

try

im admiting it right here right now
i cant take responsibilities

no way jose

but i am trying

but lighten instead

not burden-ing it even more

" I'm a soldier

These shoulders hold up so much

They wont budge, I'll never fall or fold up

I'm a soldier

Even if my collar bones crush or crumble

I will never slip or stumble

I'm a soldier

These shoulders hold up so much

They wont budge, I'll never fall or fold up

I'm a soldier

Even if my collar bones crush or crumble

I will never stumble "

am i a soldier?

i dont think so

but i'll try

cute

2005-08-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

i am being evil
or not

but i will say it anyhow

how cute!
and its in malay some more

sweet and sincere
cute
cute cute

all i can say

pink!

2005-08-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

i feel pink today
i sound gurliee

wow wee

see italics

so cursive

omg whats happening?!

i am so disappointed and devastated
with the 'NO' answer given to me

but come what may

i will strive and fall down on my knees

of that's what it takes for the

PERTH TRIP
i realize its S$1235
however i feel it is kind of worth it although
the ruler of this particular house of mine says it isnt

how unsupportive right?

and i am completely sad even more after
hearing the rulers of my friend's family very supportive
answers or supportiveness

can that ruler of mine not think practical for once?

the ruler kept saying about travel agent having connection with
teacher and part of the money is contributed to travel agent's commision

which after telling mai she said

isnt that how they earn money?

which is believably true

i mean they need income too

im not saying i dont understand the long lost of reasons he gave

actually its basically bcos of FULUS
if u know what that means

right now im just really hoping the edusave money will help pay halve

and i i'll pay halve of what's left
and the ruler and assistant ruler would be kind enough

to pay the rest

THAT IS
if i can even go

either THAT

or there'll be a trip like this next year

i need to start saving

tips anyone?

oh yeah, i too need to earn money

suggestions?

im really up for this trip dunno why

ive been eating fatty foods nowadys
but i after the height and weight
i realize i lost 0.6kg!
how wonderful
its not much
but i didnt gain like some people i know

yesterday was a trip to kfc and eating as per normal
mai was the only one not eating
surprising?
oouh! very
since she's the cow

then it was study study and smart study for lit at night
but i couldnt tahan my sleepiness and slept anyhow
and its true, what my sister says
the below katil is cooler than the above one

today
eat again
before that
we went ot see Ms Chng about that trip

she says supposedly some money would be taken form edusave
but how much?
she doesnt have a clue
teacher, you're suppose to have the information already
tsk

then amira said she had tuition
so she left her
leaving me and mai to eat together
then amira msged saying
she had no tuition cos ther tutor's kid was sick

so she lari-ed rumah again today
and told us to go with her
when apparently we were on the way to tampines

we ate at century square's halal food court
coz there were two
and mai said the de one was 'cine'

farnie how you see it
the halal one is green -which resembles the malay colour
the non halal one is red resembling cine

see the connection?

so i ate sliced fish noodle
mai ate mee soto

we ate and ate and ate
then i was so full and so was mai
but unfortunately she still wanted to hirup the soup

however, we were siting on the long bench like we were done
so this 'nyonya', the cleaner,
wanted to clear the table

mai told her not to remove her bowl
but apparently, she did not hear and took my fork and spoon and place them
into HER bowl
and mai's face went
OHHHH NOOO

evil auntie!

then we had nothing to do
and did something at the back of mai's
supposedly-suppose-to-be-done-during-the-free-time-waiting-for-lyana
science worksheet

cannot say
then something happened
and mai's eyes went poppin'

and i had an unnecessary argument using mai's phone
and I the girl had to give in!
zafran should teach him a thing or two

then lyana came and i wanted her to see mai's phone joget so bad
which obviously stirred weird shockingness followed by aughter from us
then there was this couple right beside us
and i must respect them for being able to tolerate our kentalness and nonsense
while couple-ing

and lyana was like
Bah bleck!
at them then hide behind me

just to irritate them

people come and go
while we just sat there and stayed

i'll continue begging

8 Aug 2005

2005-08-09T22:42:00.000-07:00

the greatest day of my entire life!
am i melebihing on that line?
No way!

So its the celebrations at school today
and it totalie rawks my smelly socks!!
we had outdoor performances
the uniform groups did their march in
then the verious clubs did their dances

we took loads of pictures
and crapped alott
note: safiah and lyana! i want the pictures **

then the guest of honour when into the conference room
and had some discussion with the sports scholars

you know what the real reason we came up with?
to make sure the guest of honour didnt see how messy
we were before settling down in the hall!!

we rawk dont we?
so after everything had settled down
we applauded and the performances and award presentation began!

we goodness did the fist 30 mins or so sucked
it was award presentation all the way and you know what made it sucked?
" Please hols your applause until after all the awards of each category have been given out "

BOO YAH
did we listen?
nuh uh-

it was superr crazy
4N did their BUZZ@CANTEEN performance
it rawked
its this composition of malay, indian, chinese and the normal music
they did a malay compo first. song- triple noise ( amboi mak minah sayang-)
then indian was a composition of some indian song mixed with other song
everything wasnt original it was a mixture
nice going guys

OooH i forgot to tell what i wore
i wore a three quarter white pants and a red top
and obviously people didint like my top because a " PLAYBOY " was written big big on it
muahaha
i sooo rawk

then the guest of honour and teachers were invited for refreshments at the canteen
and then the REAL FUN started
they switched off the lights and those that brought torchlights swung them around
and we were like clubbing!!

except to national songs
which sounds weird
but-
it was a blast
we danced and danced and sing and sing
and grooved and jumped and jumped like there was some concert going on
like whoaaa it rawked!

wait, wait.
it would have been even fun-er if we didnt had stuupeedd IPW after that
sigh
we were the fift and last grp to present that day
and im ever so glad IPW can now be out of my freaking disastrous life!
so as it turns out Ms Poon ordered KFC for us but i had to rush and meet
the oh so wonderful old friends of mine

jannah, amira, safiah, adel and me took two seperate taxis
and reached TM
adel was holding on to jannah's bag and jannah was holding on to adel's bag
clever ar those two
then jannah's fone rang
and instead of it being her mom or dad or some she knows
it was like
hello? boleh cakap dengan husna?

terperanjat beruk aku
haha
thats how it is when you got no handphone
i lead a sad life
sigh..

they told me they were at century square eating at some food court on level 4
so i walked and walked like i was floating cos was supperr happy
then at swatch i saw maisarah with her primary school friends
i teguh-ed her of course
then she went all malay at me
oh hie husna apa anda buat di sini?
uhh ohh saya mahu berjumpa dengan kawan saya di century square
hahhahahaha

then poofed!
we went on our ways
i was practically bouncing as i went ahead up and up and up! to level four
i seriously couldnt see where this foodcourt was

i finally found it and jerked my head out making sure i dont miss seeing them
cos u see, i have vision problem or what you call-i have to wear specs but i look ugly in them-
we said our hellos and they ate as i looked hungrily at them but i didnt felt like eating
dunno why

then i played with zafran's phone
and you know what?!
the show is starting at 5.10pm
in my head i was going
shit. im dead. im dead. cant go. shit. oh nooooo. no!

yeapp
cos i told my father i was going to be home BY 5pm
but noo the show started at 5.10pm
but luckily for me i told me pops and i went ahead with the plan
so we had like about 3 hrs to kill
3 HOURS
and it was all, ALL killed at that same foodcourt

we made soo much noise that i started to see people around us disappearing
and we joked and made a suggestion
u know what i think we need to put a signboard that says:
We havent met in a very long time. Please pardon us. Thank you. Sorry for the inconvenience.

hahaha good one guys.
but i was really surprised that the manager or authoritied didnt chase us out
cos we made a lot of noise
like, ALOT
-
you know what
im pissed off right now
and depressed
and sad
a wave of all these suddenly hit me and i dont feel like continuing now

you suck
just hate me

6 Aug 2005

2005-08-09T22:18:00.000-07:00

hey hey this is the picture we took last saturday at the carnival
the ladie in the red tudung is Cikgu Siti
the boys took one with her too, you guys send me a picture of it ok? i want one!

so here it is

aint it huge?

anyways i had a blast. it was very very gerek meeting you people.
boys, give me yours! ok?

clockwise: Husna, Shahidah, Syarina, Nadia, Khairunnisa, Cikgu Siti

nice

2005-08-06T23:20:00.000-07:00

dude. sup man.

haha yays loves mys blogskins! <3>
and loads of minahs and mats
loads!

all were there at TKPS fun fair
the gurls took picture with cikgu siti
i'll try and put it put on this blog

and the guys were super anti social
except for zafran
the rest were soo isolated and sombong

i am superr madd becauseof that!
i mean after a long time since we met and you guys
are acting so foolishly?

i wanted to talk and update and share and laugh so much with
ALL of you people
but because of the guys, all the girls were damn saying fuck all the way
we were so mad! :((

zafran i could see was trying his supper best to entertain us and so did hazim arh
but zafran was doind the best
at least e wanted to know more, sit and talk
but the rest-
isyy!

we sat at macs also act as though we were
bloody invisble
siting right behind or in front whatever,
pun tak nak layan or talk langsung!

im sooo mad
because
we havent meet or talk after such a long time
and then liddat
what sey-

we girls had to make the first move, so called
we were the ones who had to approach
so that we can be together and spend time
badigolsamdol!

ugh must have been flirting larh right
freak
tak boleh ker nak hang ?
kiter sumer kan classmates
i really missed all of you
i take back my words, SSS, i cannot not turn back
im really sorry

haha neways shahidah teased omar so badly
and he got agitated and frustrated
haha. too bad

you guys wanns go watch movie with us later?
cant. gotta go somewhere later
oouhh nak pergi jumper matair eh. tak per tak per
no i dont have any girlfriend ( with the please larhh i dont have really-look)
yarr right!

then at the macdonald i told her to disturb him again
he was queing for his food
omar, eh i thought you had to go somewhere and meet your girlfriend?
what? no larhh. i got no girlfriend (even frustrated)

muahaha gurls, we rawk

and im in love with khairunnisa!
you rawk gurll
damn hectic and hyp are uu!

gerek seyy-

then the guys had to leave us
and i msged afan with rina's fone
terus terang with him or actually them, about how it is
we felt
and he was like all
sorry if we disappointed you guys. maybe next time kay?
really sory. :)

when was the next time gonna be huh?!
ehh ait, actually its gonna be this monday! :))
lols

so people, to let yall know, im booked on monday!
SSS, i think amira also booked.
sorry kentals. :P

then we stayed and grumbled about the guys' attitude
ugh they suck arhh. haiyoo
we expected girls to be liddat not guys!
tsk

then syarina's abang angkat came, khairul
(arhhh! i want abang angkat! soo jealous of herr :(*)
together with taufik or taufiq
both from TKSS- tanjong katong

and were also my senior
as in they were from class2002 of TKPS

they were more funner than the boys larhh
haha damn farnie arhh u guys

btw, impressed with my jumping over the tangga railing form a high height??
i am!
soo proud of myself

we played truth or dare under irsyaad's blok
then couldnt think of any dares we asked the seniors
then you know what they say to me?
tak nak arh, pakai tudung
ehh! omg, i am soo insulted! iam soooo insulted!

thats what i said
haha

anyways
it was fun!!
i hope nisaupdate then i can copy herr
lols

ohh yar
before we went macs we sat at some otehr blok to wait for the guys
and guess what?
we screamed for irsyaad to come down
haha
we went
IRSYAAD!

farnie
then after that teh guys finally appeared
and we called irsyaad home since he lost his hp
and nisa was like shouting
we were asking him to stick his head out of the
kitchen window
so we can see him

haha damn farnie
asked him to come with us he said he dun wan or cant dunnoarhh

then nisa was like shouting arhh
then she couldnt hear what he was saying
andpassed the fone to me
i was like
hello?
ehh jgn pekik2 boleh tak
ohh sorry sorry

nisa, dier kater jgn pekik larhh
gaknyer nanti pekak..
ohhh, hello? (veh gently and smoothly)

hahaha kaklar wooohh
he didnt come down lar neways
so sad.

and nadia had a weird laughter!
serious
no offence are nadodol
but really.

i had a blast even thought i ended up wanting to sleep after i had eaten
so now, im really looking foward to monday

kayys? x))

lurrbe you people <3
yes, even you boys, although u guys sucked.

aww boo hoo
i care?

phew

2005-08-05T23:27:00.000-07:00

i am just a normal girl

with feelings and hopes
i get mad an angry too

i may have hurt you
i may or may not realize it
but im sorry if i did

mood swings is a package
of this life of a girl
i lead with pride

i try to make good
i may have been bad
sorry, if hurting you i had

im getting too emo
maybe its just me?
or is it the other voice talking?

its late and im tired
i think im not right
in my mind

what the hell did i just come up with? sorry arh but its already almost twelve and i think the tiredness is getting into my head. pardon me yeah?

____lost piece
husee <3

Lyrics

2005-08-05T20:14:00.000-07:00

ahhh,

crap

is this skin alritey?
shit no navigator!
need help, please.

sorry bout the song.
kinda muffled
but here's the lyrics
-

hitam bukan cirimu
putih juga bukan cirimu
namun ku melihatmu
takbercahaya, seperti memudar

cinta aku mencinta
engkau yang aku mau
namun, tak tapat waktu
ku sudah jera
dalam percintaan
salam hangat untuk cintamu
aku yang kandas dan patah hati
biarlah orang memandang lama
aku tak tau bercinta lagi

engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
dan kau terluka oleh cintanya
kini kau hadir ku sudah
jera

cinta aku mencinta
engkau yang aku mau

namun, tak tapat waktu
ku sudah jera

dalam percintaan

salam hangat untuk cintamu
aku yang kandas dan patah hati

biarlah orang memandang lama

aku tak tau bercinta lagi

engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta

namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
dan kau terluka oleh cintanya

kini kau hadir ku sudah
jera

so thats the lyrics
have to proper this blog template
tsk

im glad i'll be meeting you guys later
miss you
continue to love u <3>

woahhh long.

2005-08-05T11:15:00.000-07:00

if im in my right state of mind right now, i recall updating like a billion times but the connection keeps sucking and my computer keeps crashing tha i got fed up and decided not to publish.
however it looks like my computer is working fine and co-operating with me today hence, i'd update.

so like no one updated on racial harmony or did they?
i woke up and got ready for school. But i decided to wake my pops up to send me cos i gots stuff to bring like the lovely punjabi costume.
reached school and i knew i was totally bugging amira whether or not she'd change into her costume that morning cause we had PE third period.
anyhoos, we changed. amira wore baby blue punjabi with earrings. i wore maroon punjabi with big circle earrings. 2o was damn hectic. it was like some bazaar selling traditional costumes.
Jannah broght like bags of clothes. and some boxes of jewelry.
i wore slip ons with a lil height. so i looked sorta taller, i guess.

we had morning assembly of course and Miss Leong wanted to meet the BOYS on our school. I was like, shit, lyana and narmadha mesti kene caught. then i totallie remembered that luckily they didnt wear the male traditional costumes cos they had their PE first period.
so guess what? Lyana wore the baju kurung she brought. it had big flowers on it. tsk. hardly think lyana would wear such things. i mean even if its for hari raya.
third period we had napfa 5 items. it rawked. i got 2Cs and 3As.
standing broad jump- 16-sth cm
shuttle run- 11.06 secs
pull ups- 20
sit ups- 31
the stretching one( i forgot what its called)- 39 cm

OMG everyone stinked! and we had to get back into the costumes. haha. we were liek one big hectic family. i mean we were already one except this was worse. we were passing deodorants everywhere. people were shouting for help and asking for tissues, wipes, powder. just imagine.
as it turns out i heard lyana actually wore her dads baju kurung to malay class? how dumb can she get? like cikgu mahani and norrhani were there. haiz i think she must have kena lectured.
pitiful.

after school the whole sectwo level had math common test. such a lovely day aint it? dah hapi hapi then suddenly when the happiness could behappier by eaving school for the weekends, a math test sneakily came along and destroyed the whole atmosphere.
Everyone was like ' how to find the angle using trigo?' i omg omg omg i forgot the formulae for pythogaras theorem'
the board was like filled with workings and thoughts.
i studied larhh of course but in my mind, get it over and done with;
once the paper ended there were the obvious 'oh shit, im gonna fail; warlow die ah die ah' ' what you put for question one?'
people ask me questions everytime i say would be, huh? what? oh dunno arh cannot remember. never ask me i usually forget whatever answer i put down when its over.
thats me.

lyana and narmadha changed into their unauthorized, as quoted by lyana, clothes. narmadha wore blue male baku kurung with gold, beige samping.
then take pictures larhh. haha. they cant pose like guys man. haha.
ooouhh! there was one thing i was totallie proud of, i finally took a candid pic of mai in the denim punjabi suit with dangly earrings with her smiling and face facing the camera!
i rawkk dont I? i knowww <3

we took a picture together using self timer. amira, mai, ly, narmadha and me. dasyatt.
each time we took a picture mai would go, first shot- eh cacat second shot- ahaha lagi cacat
third shot- omg so cacated!!
we had to take like quite a number until even smiling made me tired. haiz.
ohh yah. amira me and mai did a gurlie sweet pose first and i TERstep on mai's toe. gosh it must have really hurt larh cos i wore heels. not so high though :((
she was mad at me of course. an she made a sruched up face which lyana took with her camera!
it was a beautiful moment. then sh got crazier and madder because ly wont delete it that she wanted to pose like orang rawk gilerr. i just accompanied her she looked scarly horrible. haha.
sorry arh.

we went for ML later on. and played pass the parcel. but when u kena then u get denda. mai had to read some sort of sajak i think.
oouhh! i remembered. nabila had to act as tanggang's mother. she did it bootifully. until habibah who was surprised she was even the tanggang was scared out of her wits. it was nice. applause!
and kak arini was soo baddd!! kak khalis oso!! she purposely stoppe the musc when the freaking bottle got into my hands. and kak arini was, oouhhh i know what to do with you. sing! but must be malay song. i went, what?? malay? alerr. tak nakk. dun wan.
then i thot for a moment. ahhh pulangkan by misha omar.
i confirmed the shorus part with amira first cos she is the malay expert i know, and sang.
fuuhh. i cracked in the middle. i knew i couldve done better haiz.

im sorry but i forgot what happened after that, so thats all for last friday, 29 July 2005

monday- forgott
tuesday- had EL. i sneaked in some biscuits and mai and me sat in one corner eating as well as
continue to write the bloody script. then the sec fours presented us their last play for
EL. it was funny larhh. then we finally got teh CCA shirts all of us had been yearning
for.

wednesday- had EL farewell afterschool. it was fun. we got to eat!! KFC. we purposely made
the NCC girls jealous cos they were practising to march for the celebrations. haha.
kak shanizah saw me and, makan tak jemput? i couldnt remember what i said.
we skipped the cleanign process and headed for 2o. so many people stayed back to
decorate the class! woah i could really start to see 2Os spirit getting tighter and
better.
OMG i totaliie missed out on the main event of the day! 2o had our 2.4km run for
napfa. woah right now im just totallie glad the whole napfa mania is finally OVER!
no more trainings! no more toturuous run! wheeeeee~~ but i bet yall that poon will
continue to make us suffer!
you know how people would say amira is all lembik and lembab and stuff ryte?
she totallie is not larh. especially when it comes to perserevance and motivation.
you know what her timing was?! 14.sth mins okay!! she got a stinking A! and well,
i didnt. i gots a 16.27mins for the whole run and i collapse onto jeralynn and cheryl
cos i tried to look for amira but cannot find her. (heard that makcikk?) my head was
berdenyuting lahh! and i remembered that morning i vomitted. isyy.
then saw mai and ly at canteen. asked them about their fiveitems. ly is SO not
flexible. her sit and reach was 38cm!! and mai's was, guess, guess, fiftytwocm!!!
bloody 'ell. i knoww.
after we lepak in 2o i knew i had to make a call. but then my call wasnt answered!
tsk. leceh sunnguh!

thursday- its the day i can rememeber for going back early. haha. really. and remedial was
weirdly retarded and lame. it mustve been less than 40mins!

friday- today!! Its supposedly BE YOURSELF DAY. but the thing is i dont agree because we had
a theme by which each class had to follow and it totally does not show our' be ourselves'
why make and evnt like that turn horrible?? i mean wouldnt it be nice if we could come
as really ourselves. haiyohh.
we had english compre test. and i slept! not all the way larh!! i did complete it though.
but it got boring and the paper stared at me and i stared back- OMG OMG OMG
intermission for a while, wke me up when september ends is on MTV. adoring the video
- its suuuperrr nice specially if you're damn emo and are in love. she just slapped him!!-
tell me you didnt do it, pls, tell me you didnt, OMG OMG iloveyou. pls tell me you didnt
do it. pls dont cry. i thought you'd understand. i thought you of all people would
understand. i thought you'd be proud of me.
i did this for us i did this for us. this was suppose to make it easier.
this is what the gurl said at the end after the guy went for war- no matter what i'll
always be here for u when you come back. im never gonna leave you -
how beautiful was that?
and well i got bored and kinda fall asleep luckily i woke up and finished the questions.
the paper was hard larhh. actually okayy.
then we stayed back for a while to change and get ready for the judges to judge our class.
we were changing when MR LAM looked in and, are you ready?
we chorused NO! and shooed him out. HELLO we were changing mind you.
after that we went to 2N talked about the prank amira and mai did to suadrif. narrly
dudes. then talking talking talking amria wen tover to 2o and took the hamster.
she sat beside me and hold it near my face! i screamed mai screamed and ran out of her
seat. lyana freaked and screamed and ran too. amira obviously laughed. atiqah was, cute
sini nak pegang. she held it and guess what? the hamster peed on her hands! hahahahaha

i thot at first, what the hell? how come tangan atiqah leaked water? then it hit me!
hamster. in her hand. hamster. hamster. it peed!
i know im kental. like i care! lols
then we laughed soo loudly darshini took the hamster away from atiqah's hands and you
know what she did? she took out shit form its asshole!!! ew ew ew ew ew

we had ML today and our juniors and us agreed on one thing. shall not be evil this time.

what you guys saed totallie true. cant agree more.
and i think i love the ML seniors <3
kak shaniza, kak shaza, kak farah, kak hazimah, kak latifah
im gonna miss you guys when you guys leave. couldnt you agree more?
they totallie rawk. and are the most slengest and tight seniors id ever have.

i'll miss you
we will miss you <3 <3

bullshit

2005-07-31T19:28:00.000-07:00

i dont want to tell

i dont want to hide

but you keep coming

asking for more answers

i didnt want to tell

it aint got nothing with you

why u taking it like its your

when obviously it doesnt

you proved me enough

the phony lies pretending and acting

beneath all the layers

you seem a proud faker

unfortunately for you
your lies were dug open

slowly and surely

i found out your true colours

the promise aint what it is

we promised something different

i dont regret what i've done

i am proved of my innocence

the pact wasnt broken

at least not by me

from what i see, unfortunately

its you who did, without realizing it

i did tell and i wont anymore

i wont make promises i know wont last long

great friends we werent
great friends not even later

stop bullshitting your serious shit

peel off those fake covers
cos i've found your true colours

i am unhappy about the current situation although i sound light hearted about it. whats wrong with being as normal as before? last time it didnt seem as much of a problem as i see it

you took it into your own hands and wanted to be invovled. i dont see why i am to be blamed

i can see you guys know that it may be you too but the way i see it, the way i interpret the message you're putting across is that its basically because of us

unfortunately i dont feel no regrets or that i am to be blamed and i feel so sorry for you guys

stop fakin it and say it straight to the face

you aint big enuf in the head

to admit it straight to the face

stop the fake truths and start
going through the archives

your bullshit didnt last long

i dug and found the hideous wood

darn it i am soo bad arent i?

aww too badd

ive changed. wait not THAT much

just changed to being more sociacle and open and loud spoken!!

ohh yeahh from my being CooL ( ;P ) i became to wayy kentaler than you guys can tahan

dats the way uh huh uh huh

me likeyy uh huh uh huh

badd gurl

2005-07-15T21:22:00.000-07:00

when i think i have left it all behind, the nasty, if u can call it that way, would come rushing back like waves hitting the shore; no control over it.
it comes and goes as it wants. i have no control over what i want to say. sometimes i know i hvae to hold those words or view back, but i just sometimes blurt it out accidentally or just to put my opinion across.

i hate it when i do things like that sometimes, cos the words that spread out of my mouth may sometime be interpreted wrong or sometimes right; that they hurt others. Which in turn would hurt me.

im too nice of a person aren't i? but when i get nasty, i have no control over the words being born out of my mouth. there it is again, no control.

my life, i guess, is out of my reach to be controlled by me.
first it will be the rules by parents
second would be the burden of marriage as it would be controlled by the husband

the first and second notes were what we were kinda 'discussing' at bedok macs.

seriously, if there are any guys out there who dont realize how much privilege they have; they just dumb man.

im seriously tired. i have eye bags or dark circles. whichever way, i look like i never slept for a feww good days.
need some concealer or something.
recommendations neone?

yesterday tried to go chua chu kang stadium to support darshini and adel for the nationals track
quallifyer
the journey took a good 1 1/2 hour, satrting wit bus ride, MRT, and another bus ride

however, teh sad part was we could not actually witness the run made by adel and darshini
so by the tie wereached the stadium, narmadha saw them like 'loitering' if u can say that
mai got sorta maluated cos we came there for nothing now, and ran back down the stairs
it was hilarious, amira just as normal walkled her malas walk following mai down

we sat at the spectators side anyway, darshini and some other tracker leading us
we sat beside the ahmad ibrahim sec. noisy people they were. and the runners of the school actually stripped right there until just shorts were left. two of them i think

then we were stupidly amazed by how they ran and narmadha suddenly realised her cousin from RI was competing
she and darshini dashed down while the SSS just squinted and got a closer look
wow, quite a runner narmadha's cousin. actually, he was def. fast

then mai, turned and saw them competing abs
i was like, they have abs? nicee.
hahahax

so we were runnin late, and decided to get home.
by the time it was already about 5.45pm
can u imagine how gabrah we were?

so we saw 307 coming, and ran,uh huh i ran babeh, all the way to the other bus stop
we decided to take 67 which lasted a good another onehalf hour from chua chu kang to kallang onli

then lyana was already going crazy and on the verge of almost crying that we decided to take the taxi
i reached home and didnt got nagged or scolded or anything
wow

so today, we werent allowed to stay back in school, be it cca or slacking.
we headed for bedok library at an attempt at doing revision or homework
no seats to fill
we moved on to bedok macs
and sat at one corner
at the budgeted $4 meal
as quoted " budget rox! "
uh huh gals. uh huh. def. x)

did some reading and homework
mai just read and tried to attempt the sec ones malay homework; which she obvioudly failed at doing
amira, being her rajin self, finished up the remedial worksht given by mRs yeo

then we crapped alot and left by the sec ones
got to know some people we wouldnt want to see us were coming to bedok
so me and mai planned out escape plans if they were to appear

laughing and laughing skali the unwanted people were at school
we burst our bubble or tearful laughter louder

it was god damn farnie
when we finally realized they were far away
we took successfully completed our escape mission; through the main door
hahahahahaha

then there were some like ITE guys running for a bus and when they didnt manage to board it,
she accused us of blocking their way and amira said they pointed at us

such gentleman eh?
accusing beautifu ladies like us
tsk tsk tsk
watch your mouth young man
haha

get back when i can
for now;
voices tell me i should carry on x)

2005-07-03T18:32:00.000-07:00

1st week of term 3
- sleepy
- laughter
- merayap
- wow news

haha
love the last point

i can admit that
i slept unwantingly or wantingly, whichever way,
in at least 1 period each day this week

some in english and lit period
and one whole math period cos th teacher on on ML
gerek know..

monday
stayed back in sch
waited for ly to finish her chinese class
then helped her and her fellow PSLs with some signs
cos she claim she is a failure at art

we wrote many 'tandas' and 'toilets'
reminded ly to take the signs which we made on the keep fit day

tuesday
ly had to stayed back for her meeting
mai amira me went bugis
walking at the side of the road on the way to bustop
so we wanted to move to the other side

saw a car but it was quite far behind
mai and me walked across
amira tak sempat
we kena honked
amira saw Ms Leong at the passenger seat!

mai started blabbering
what if we saw her at bugis
what if she mention this incident tomorrow during assembly
whaiyo!

then went giordano to buy ly a plain black shirt
took neoprints with loads of deco- lovely
and went to amira's aunts shop at Golden Landmark
to make ly the Good Charlotte shirt

would like to thank mai and me for the design
and amria for decision maker
and her aunts for sparing us their time and threads

wednesday
go parkway to meet idah
ate at KFC
one day alone I spent alot of cash
tsk tsk tsk
need to learn to save

idah brought syarina
had an update talk
and she started ejeking me, AGAIN
ISY!

went home by taking 196
wahh. seriously empty the bus

mai didnt want to take 31 cos pass VS
plus we went back at 5 plus when everyone finished their cca or training
then in 196, she 'grumbled' 196 not passing VS then cannot see they all
[dont ask me who ;they all; is]
idah heard
sal? oh. dont worry 196 pass VS lah.

muahaha
in ur face, darrling

thursday
mai didnt come, had flu

one member dwn.
meday meday!

friday
had MLDDS
serious talked with the sec ones for about an hour
impressed with Hafizah's a.k.a Siti Wan Kembang serious talking
amaaazing

saturday
termeet kak syaza on 65
WOW news hit me like hell

shall not say
maybe i shall

my veryyy big time crush stays same level as her
and she seen him and says he's wayyy hottttttt
mann, she got me really fantasizing

too early
went for breakfast
in the afternooneating chicken rice with ly
then ly turned and saw

of all people

Cyclops!

isy.
i got up went in front of the stall
to make sure
and def. i saw his goatie

mai was like
Oh No

amira
bedek arh;; ooops

i'd just like to point out that me
BEDEK epidemic has def. got into all the SSS
muahahahahahaha

i was laughing like madd

at night i realize that that person really does flirt
omg
sss know what im talking about

now, i dont know

sunday
madrasah
updating blog like now.

i think im watching movie tomorrow
wanna go jogging in the morn SSS?

bah

2005-06-25T19:57:00.001-07:00

Lets start from where we left

Tuesday:
ok so like i said
Highlight of The Day: We kena attack

So like went into bedok library
Tried to find for a place to sit
Level One is hopeless
So we took the stairs up to level two

Then we took the stairs up to level three
Tried to find for a place
But to no avail

so as we went down the stairs to level two
this group of unfortunately ugly wannable or maybe already
gatal mats were going up

so i pushed the rest to the side saying
ehh pi tepi pi tepi

no eye contact was done whatsoever
headed for the other side of the room
still searching for a place as we walked

aishah kater
ya allah asallah sampai ke tempat cine
were at the chinese section
i said
tengah cari tempat arh

terus we pusing and i already saw the same gatal grp
of mats coming down the stairs
my eyes went big and i went
ohh shit. sth bad gonna happen
to myself

so to elak then I mazed around the bookshelevs and stuff
if im not wrong the rest were also finding for a place
or they were with me

then kiter naik lift to avoid them
go up to level three
beh jln siner saner
tengok they take the stairs

then someone saw then comin up the stairs
so we took the lift back down
[cam main semunyi2 or catching gitukk]

So we camly walked around
and i found a table with chairs
but only two people can sit there
the rest was filled readi

cos i was holding onto my file
i wanted to put it back into my bag
so i sat down there
to put it into my bag

amira thought i wanted to sit there
takder tempat lah kat situ!
aku tau lahh nanti sabar
i was struggling to put the file into the bag
pat malay room ader tempat, takder tempat kat situ
aku tauuuuuu nak letak file dalam bag dulu jerrr
nanti aku datang lahhh

so she moved into the malay room
and i was trying to put the file into the bag
skali I saw one of the mat gatal who we called 'messenger'
cos he kept pestering us saying his friend yang nak

so I saw messenger walking towards the other side towards the chinese section
he must have been searching at level 3.

dier jln cam slumber gituk beh tanyer
boleh mintak nombor?
me dah gabrah
cos i was alone
and then I quickly managed to put away the file and headed for the malay room

then they all found five chairs; just enuff for all of us
so started doing our hw
lyana and me was facing the window and we were sitting side by side
mai and amira was facing the door sitting side by side
so the four of us were back to back

amira sat outside, ly sat ouside
mai and me on the inside
tgh buat hw sumer
beh aishah wanted to check her frenster
then mira n mai went dwn with her

so we were stuck
ly took out hr creative zen
beh kiter dgr music togeda geda lah

sebelum tu the gataled mats dah masuk into the room togeda with us
but they sat around the bookshelves so called hiding there
ly and me just buat bodoh arh
[which we were totalie good at right lyana?]

then the messenger came ly saw she turned with the
-oh crap going to laugh- oh shit nak buat aper- face
i turned and saw i made the same face
then both of us turned the opposite direction so we didnt see his face
when he spoke i turned
beh got a close up of his face
gigi ca bangit sahh
bunny teeth
bulgoing ouut
how hodoh!

boleh mintak nombor?
beh dier dah siap2 pegang fone
kawan aku yang pakai baju hijau yang nak berkenalan
boleh tak?
when he was talking i already turned away form him cos cannot stop laughing
cos we just didnt say anithing
he turned and walked away
yang baju hijau tau

seriously??
u guys think we are just one of those cheap minahs who'd
despoly give our number away?
maruah jatuh babe! maruah jatuh....

we couldnt stop laughing
then terus compose ourselves and started doing out hw back

so mai and amira came back
then they membebel-ed about founding someone like cyclops
the specs arh
but its gurl larh

then ly and me told them what happened
they laughed
beh buat hw balik arh
skali dat messenger came back
but he was leaning more towards amira and mai's side
and asking the same question
boleh mintak nombor

we couldnt stop laughing
dont ask me why
we just laugh at about averything
then ly and me were laughing and saying
mai bilang mai.
cepat bilang tu bender mai.
mai bilang

but mai coulnt say it cos she kept laughing
soon he moved away back hiding behind bookshelves

then amira said she cannot concentrate
mai said it osocos they said when they tilt their head to tulis
they can see the gataled mats saying
boleh tak? boleh tak?
sambil angguk2kan kepale dorang

mai did mind but not as much as amira
since ly and me find it so easy to focus onto our work
I switched places with amira
u know what mai only wrote?
' Siti Maisarah '

hahah. kesian dorang ehh
then read the part about we asked firdaus for help
on amira or mai or ly blog kayy

at first he said no dont use his number and give them
so ly wrote quite big on her notebook in orange marker
'Tak Boleh'

i have to say this arh
she was laughing
and she LAMELY put the piece of notebook beside me making it stand
skali we kena reply
tak boleh takper

terus lagik we laugh
ly was like
mak engkau dorang boleh nampak sah

they left
fuuhhh nasib
skali amira got a msg from firdaus
and he said if they kacau us give them his number
then we were like

kalau dier bilang siang2 kan bogos dah dorang dah pegi
aper arhh firdaus nie lambat arh

we didnt find it a reason to continue to stay
so we were packing up to leave larh
i turned towards the door beh the gatal-ed mats were at the stairs
and were like pointing down

i told the rest they were like
really?
point pat bawah?
ader aper pat bawah?
hah?! dorang tunggu kan pat bawah?

terus we tore out a piece of paper and wrote firdaus'
number on it but written as
' mai- 9XXXXXXX '

but they didnt go down there were instead around the comp area in front of the stairs
we slumberly walked towards the stairs elaving amira to give them the 'our' no.

i said
leave pat wall tu nanti dorang amik
nanti ader orang amik
tak lah tak lah

ly mai and me went down the stairs leaving amira
to give the paper to them

we went out side cannot stop laughing
skali they were duduking at the adventure park there//

beh lyana saw the messenger's relflection on a glass door coming towards us
she was like
dier datng dier dtg
nombor korang ksik nomber saper arh?
me: asal kasik nombor tak ckp ker
yang rambot pendek eh?
ly: tak arh rambot panjang sampai pantat

and we laughed sampai terduduk pat pavement
sampai mai nak ter pee!!

and we had to go back to the library
the way back the messenger came to us
AGAIN

then i dunno arhh i forgot readii
serious!
read the rest nyer blog.
kayy

gtg
for madrasah
ciao for now

bah

2005-06-25T19:57:00.000-07:00

2005-06-24T23:36:00.000-07:00

Tuesday:

today the colour combination for SSS was black.
i wore black sweater with some brooklyn tangan keruk pat dlm.
amira wore black fila.
mai wore hang ten black.
ly wore op black i think.

I was late. then terjumper aishah on the bus.
alerr mak dek ni plak. mampos nanti dorang marah aku
aku pi terbawak aishah.
smile and be nice.
duk sini.

i knew i was late.
went there they started eating at the kedai kopi readi.
mkn prata.
i ate one too.
but the fan was soo strong.
flew my styromfoam plate.
landed on my sleeve and bag.
PEESH!

amira bebeled cos kena her.
the rest laughed.
hmph!
normal2.

headed for MRT station.
no one showed up.
Just the five of us.
Reached sun-dac.
mat topi lamer, sombong, chinese gurl and fren was there.

Sorry larh mai. Cyclops takder arhh..
hahaha.

but today was diff.
we did some interation.
is that how u spell it?

like we mingle arnd with em.
sal dah warm up the previous day kann.
did two bracelets then aishah ask eitehr of us to teman her.
she want to play wit the uncle.
The clients were playing their respective jugsaw puzzles and games.

I went to the Iswandy,, he drooled but wiped em. impressive.
he did this massive jugsaw puzzle. even i had trouble helping him.
I was 'setia' okayy.
i continued helping.
aishah abandoned me a few times.

ahh wait,,
I waled towards the client table whre iswandy and uncle was sitiing.
i smiled and that iswandy asked me to sit dwn on the empty chair opposte him.
pandai2. Masehh.

kayy.
amira was doing ketupats again and mai got bored of bracelets she tried doing ketupats.
let me just dsay she needed a whole lotsa help. and patience.

in the midst of helping with the jugsaw puzzle we had to stop cause they were gonna
have lunch.

We left and went to eat at banquet;;
mai ngan amira pandai pi jln kaki.
We took a bus. ly me and aishah.

crapped alot i think.
since thats what we normally do.
cause i carn remeber what happened over lunch.

Went back sun dac.
Then the MCYS volunteers, sombong cyclops mat topi lamer
we having chicken rice.
lyana had that at banquet. then laugh.

uh huh.
oh yeah then the mornign we came in.
we tried to find the names of the three mats.
only mane to find two of em the next day,
tell u all later larh den.

then we did some mingling again.
and afetr that stopped doing bracelets andketupats.
and helped out with the game they were gonna have.
they played bowling. imitaion one.
cariied chairs for em.

amira couldnt carry two okayy
two stacked up chairs!!!
haiz budak tarian niee.

haha. and we were laughing2 and laughing.
of course we helped her larhh.
kesian amira. kan amira kan..
pucat muker dier. hahahaha.

kiut u know they play bowling.
haha.

okayy most of the blogs never put the this part properly.
I'll shall risk and say it.

there was this guy, one of the clients arh.
i called him 'fondler'.
cos today, after he played bowling, he stood at one corner watching the rest play.
and i took a glimpse at him and he was fondling with himself.

i shall take it u people have brains and know what im talking about;;
basic: hands in pants.

so disgusting. i squealed and told the rest.
mater dorang terbeliak.
OMG eee.
Mak engkauu.
isyy. omg. omg.
Eeee. ahh.

the teacher saw, maybe they all already knoe he usually does that to himself.
he did it again. quite a few times. so ew.

after the bowling we cabuted went masjid to pray and headed for the library.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY:
KENA ATTACK. haha. as so i put it.

I go to bedok library almost usually.
And I know usually mats would hang around there at the children section, level 3.
make kissing sounds and stuff.
NOTHING EVER HAPENED TO ME BEFORE. until today.

thats why i brot they all to bedok library. I found it safe.
ehh im suppose to sms someone.
dah lambat dah nie..
continue tomorrow.

kena attacckk

2005-06-24T23:14:00.000-07:00

Assalammualaikum Warakhmatullah Hiwabarakatukh

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Friday was Hectic.
I shall be organized.

Monday:
First day of our MLDDS cip at SUN-DAC CC.
I was appointed the IC. And I couldnt do it.
But I did anyhow.
Met sweetsmellinshits at Bedok Interchange.
Colour: pink
All of us wore pink.

We came early to eat breakfast.
Mai didnt know there's Macs at Bedok. Peesh.
So we ate. And crapped alot.
Its normal. Very normal.
To us larh.

All had big breakfast xcept for Lyana.
Diet eh lyana,,, she ate Pancakes.
Headed for MRT station. Venue to meet.
Only 2 peoeple arrived. Aishah. Defilia.
Seriously. Ish.

Guess what. Its soo coincidental.
Aishah wore pink too.
No seniors came. I was all alone to take up the responsibility.
Noo laa. Got friends. They helped in time when I hadnt any guts.

Went there reported to the 'receptionist'.
She asked if we had confirmed with this Mr Lee guy.
Cos we needed to call first whatever.
Which means they hadnt expected us to be there.
Like huh??
Arent the JK supposedly suppose to have handled it?
Kk nvm.

So called2. No seniors picked up.
Whatever. So we asked
Since we're here can we just do voluntary work now.
So she went in to meet the like ehad of the place maybe.
And he called me in. And explained whatever crapness.
And we were finally signed in. 1000hrs.

Highlight of that day:
Mr Cyclops with a flat ass who ut his jeans so damn low
we could see his boxers.
Peesh.

Lyana was saying later, she would help him.
With her you know sense os surfer fashion, would buy him
better specs, boxers and sandals.
Ok. Why Cyclops? Seen the mat specs before?
Uh huh. the bick thick framed ones and the colour usually are
white or black.
He was wearin em. White.
Cyclops.

Then we joked how he would envision his heat rayy blah blah.
Lame sah.
Then I said, No no. Like this.
I imagined how cyclops would keluarkan his heat rayy.
I animated right hand holds the white specy and lower it down, still
holding it. Then he would naikkan berkali2 his kening.
Imagine.

Laughed of course.
First time there, I was scurred of the disabled people there.
They bau-ed, and when they came near, i thought they
were going to harrass me. Really.

But then I found out they were not soo bad.
Really. cute actualli. Uh huh.
Oh yeah got four other volunteers.
The sombong; Mr Cyclops; Mat Topi lamer; chinese gurl.

The somebong one betul2 sombong.
isyy. dier tuu yang muker step seyy.
ngok orang cam kiter nie digusting mammals gituk.
beh dier korek hidung.
i didnt really see.
but aishah and lyana and amira claims he does.

like ew.
tak senonoh.
pengotor nak mampos.

It was a day care center.
and the clients they actually have classes there.
So there were teachers and stuff.
Teacher Mani as so she was called was the one who
instructed us what to do.

So we decided to do crafts.
We did bracelets with beads.
And tchr Mani wanted ketupats.
so I pointed at amira. hahaha.
So she and aishah did em. Cos the rest tak proo.

I did this retro one. damn big and the colours liek whoa.
Standing out siah.

Then we went for lunch.
And we walked from the place to Bedok Interchange.
Then aishah received a call form defilia.
Defilia needed the key which I was holding on to.
Cos she wanted to go for lunch.

And she wwas like membebeling on the fone like she tuer form me.
maybe she is. foreigner mah.
whatever. tak tau sabar gak nyer.

So i had to walk all the way back to the place.
I was so damn tired. and was wearing cute sloop-ins.
beh i suffered blisters.
damn her.
sorri arh. but yeah.

So i went back interchange beh de dah habis mkn.
pergi balik tempat tu continued doing the bracelets.

And did u know the place was soo damn cute that after they had lunch
they would listen to music.
And most of the music we heard were hindustan.
I heard a number from swades. wahh. maju!

Then the clients were so called grooving to the beat.
btw, each one of us had a so called friend. xcept for amira. ish.
aishah was this uncle, as so we called him. So cute likes to smile and clap his hands.
mine was this, Iswandy guy. Melayu arh. he drools but veh clever he wipe it away.
and pandai jager kwn dier yang lain.
lyana i think is the, apek buang sampah ngan ah lian suker carik gadoh.
tu tak?
the apek seriously suker angkat sampah.
ualang alik sini saner buang sampah. kalau tkader sampah dier buat sampah.
betul.. i saw him plucking leaved from a tree and putting it into the rubbish bag.
takper makner nyer dier neat freak kann..
the the ah lian really. suker marah ishh.
mai is this auntie whom we thinks forgoten she had told us and tell again.
haha. kiut.

then that was the whole day lah i guess.
just doing of the bracelets.
go check mai ly or amira blog in case i missed nething.

so we ended at 1600hrs.
and went to pray at the masjid. zuhor and jemaah asar.
there was this makcik who would on this particular fan
and stand in front of it and dry her hair and maybe even sleep.
but i caought her sneaking a look at us. like we were bad people!
hello?! kiter alim. semahyang pat masjid. tak nampak kerr.

Then keluar masjid teh mat topi lamer, tchr mani and this other staff
was on the way home.
Mani asked how come u all still here
we were praying zuhor and asar.
ohh okayy u al will be coming tomorrow? see u. bye.

Then the mat topi lamer looked at us one kind.
up down. up down
as though he's saying biar betik minah2 cam nie pi smahyang pat masjid; merepek nyer.

makk skali smek.. kao tu lelaki tak tanggungjawab pi lakukan prayers.
oopps maafkan kalau dah buat.

Then we went home.
yay. tired day.
at night told amira to tell the rest bawak hw kiter cabot cepat beh go library buat
hw the next day.

yepp.
tuesday was black.

Thurday's crap and last days.

2005-06-16T15:30:00.000-07:00

hohohohoho
merry christmas.

heheh.
Hari Raya belum datang dah nak celebrate christmas plak?
Isy. Dah nak merapek nii. teruk arh aku ni eh.

Ader blog tapi tak update2 kann.
Whoa this week a lot has happened.
When I say alot I do mean A lot of Huge stuff.
Well, maybe, only one of em' is huge.

Okayy so like, on sunday I posted one in the morning right.
so after I got back from madrasah. We had a birthda party.
I wouldnt really call it a PArrTeH! but its a small gathering will family
members, inclucing aunts and uncs and kuzs, with bdae cakes and presents larh.

Anyhoos. celebrated uncle wan's, uncle fnd's, zuhairah, and last but not the least my 1 year old sister, Ulfah!!. Yeah but there were only two cakes and two songs sang. HAHHA.
I love zuhairah's cake. Esp the bottom part soo crunchy behbeh.

My sis cake is a marble cake with icing all over. Serious!!

So blah blah blah the night went on and morning appeared.
Late morning took 65 and went tampines mall with my mom and sisters.
Then met up with my makcik and kuz at golden village and went to watch Madagascar.

stupid show. Dont watch it if U havent. Ok?!
U better dont. A complete Waste of money honey..

No ending, Crap ler basically.

But wat to do all my kuz and sis are those lame young children who thinks the show is funny just because the trailer say it is. But no storyline!!

So like after that we went to simei and ate at banquet. Sedap mak oiii
I ate this prawn noodle. Dry. Then they gave a soup as a side. Sedapppp///

After that my family and theirs seperated and my family went to the hospital
to visit my uncle. Something happened to him larh. got blood clot in the brain and the vein
or something burst or something uh huh.
So he was in the ICU ward.
Serious condition.
I stayed there until 4.30pm.

But all my other kuz and their parents came later in the night.
I heard some of my aunties dah siap2 bacekan yaasin. And all that stuff u know.

Then the next day I was on the computer, Tuesday larh. My sis came to me and told me
my uncle had passed away readi. That morning.

Then yep. Took leave, had tahlil. FYI I did read yaasin kayy. and echoed with the tahlil.
And yes I was present and I saw with my own eyes the jenazah lepas dah balut dengan kain kapan[??]. Uh huh. saw eveything.
Crying. The bacaan. Evrything ler.

Anyhoos. Wednesday was nothing much except I slept in the afternoon. Which I find really strange. Cos I dont do the afternoon nap thing like Amira. But anyhow, I slept and like cannot wake up larh. Really man. can syiok nah tidurr. Fuuh!

haha. today is homework time. but as u can see now the computer is luring me away from the book into its realm of internet. feeeewweeet. << what der??!

bull-.
which part?
All of it.

me!

Sunday Blues? Nitemaress

2005-06-12T10:16:00.000-07:00

Ive never been updating this damn blog. ugh. My malas case ler.Anyhows I have been going out and having fun but once I stay at home, boredom starts taking over my body.AND I have been doing my homework kayy.

So today, nothing much has happened but is going to happen i guess. Later, late afternoon-night-like, we'll be celebrating birthdays! My sister, 1 year old, my kuzzin, 12, my uncle, 27, my another uncle, dunno his age liao.Uh huh. I cant wait for my kuzzin to open her birthday prezzie from my famile. We bought her a nike shoe, sneakers, whichever.
So jealous.

ive been wanting to tell this and ive been wondering about it. It juts gets scarrier whenever I keep thinking about THATscene. yesterday or today, UGH, okok. WHEN I WAS SLEEPING, I had a dream a scary dream [ cause to me nitemares are when I dream about Hantus ]I cant remember how it goes but it was like those underworld people hunting down their whatever target. At first I was just watching the whole dream.But suddenly I was part of it, playing along.

here goes. The whole dream played once. then it played again but this time with me a part of it. it's very scarry.I was holding on to my LIFE. I was TRYING to hold on to it anyhow. So i cant remember what exactly happened but there wason very vivid scene where the 'jahat' people were sitting and quarreling and there was a table and I was lying on the floorbeside the table near one of the jahat people. And i was already hurt. But the catch is, to me I was hurt but the jahat people thought i was dead. DEAD.

Then I moved to reach for something. Duno why. And they saw. And the guy near me took out a gun frm somewhere. dunno where,ugh, u know how dreams are.A GUN. shit.shit.shit. I knew I was in trouble and I WAS ALREADY hurt. I tried to move awar, save myself. But I sort of couldnt move.And remeber that vivid scene? That was it. Or THIS was it: he shot me. uh huh. i was shot. around the stomach area. I was bleeding for goodness sake. im not kidding even now

Im really spooked by it okaay. And U know when ur friend surprises ulike when they go 'BOO!'. Ur body would suddenly so called jump right?

I felt that when i was shot. Scene: the trigger was pulled the bullet hits my stomach area and My body 'jumped'.but thats not what was really important. the important or weird part is that. When in my dream I jumped,in real life,my body, on the bed, my body 'jumped' too. Like I felt it dokk.

I was freaking out just now when I thought about it. I could feel the 'impact' of the shot in real life.Fuuh. Uh huh. dats it. u can say im weird. but hey wee-erd s what my friends call me.
oh yarrrr. LOST. did u watch it? I watched it. BLODDY BRILLIANT. Fuuh. At the end of the first two epi, the shoe sent chillsthrough my body mann. Especially the part where the transceiver, that walkey talky thang, received that 'signal' from the french women. And that guy, his name was Saeed i think, said the signal has been sending out for 16 year or so?Uh huh.

Fuhh scared the shit out of me.

Lols. Wee-erd.

last tuesday went bowling with amira and mai. funny game. read mai's blog for more. But i want add on.During bowling I didnt actually really do it but i sorat tried to do the FLinstones thing. where fred would tippy-toe down the lane first before releasing the ball. Such laughs. And Mai, ur fingers arent bengkok larh. No big fuss. And yes I have the pic with me I'll try to put it at my blog the link section as an album.

Dats it from me.
Shit heads.
muahaha.

Dasyat btul2 dasyat

2005-05-31T17:32:00.000-07:00

' Get yuu freak on! '
I dont know why, but Im liking this phrase. On Saturday went to eat breakfast at Bedok Macs then went to nenek house and watched 'Kung Fu Hustle' and 'Starsky and Hutch'. Down right farnie sia both the movies!! Just made my boring day better.

Then both my sisters played the xbox wile I conquered the internet. Whee~~ Anyways, on Sunday had Madrasah. Suck it larh. Thought the boys were going to preset but I guess ustazah just forgot about the deal. Guess what she said? The scene;; I didnt even mention about handing up the projects. I was staring at her then she look at me and she said, " Eh baru teringat, those yang belum hand in project please hand in now, I know none of the boys have handed in yet. Tengok larh, saya tengok muker awak jer baru teringat." Then everyone look at me as if I told her or something. I said, " Eh ustazah, saya tak cakap paper pun, tak bersalah," LoL. Damn bad right.
Asyraf was the only one dari kaum Adam that handed up the project.

Blah Blah Blah, it was Monday. Slept quite late on Sunday night, so I ended up waking up late larh.
By the time I bathed my father was home for lunch. Well, actually I heard the door clicking then I rush to the loo, scurred get scolded.

Man, I was lazying and rotting at home. Furthermore I didnt felt like study mode. Basically the whole day I was infront of this computer. Then, just went friendster hopping and blog hopping and whatever hopping u can think of. LOL.

At night I watched MIB then switched to Hallmark watched this family oriented movie. Quite nice. Then my mom went down to have dinner I grabbed her Hp and msged my friends asking then when they can all make it for us to meet. Like hello?! Its the holidays!! You better meet up.

So its most prbably this Thurs Ok? Watch movie or sth... Kayy??!

Then at night I watch that Las Vegas Crime thingy show. Then fell asleep. DUHX. Next day, which is liek today, woke up early cos I promised Amira I'd call her to confirm on where we going. My goD! She keeps asking about her blog. Seesh Amira!! The music code should be placed in the body section. Ok?? Better yet choose anoda song!! Kayy? x]]

So we went Bugis today. Lol I got may Pops to gimme 50 damn bucks. And now all I have is a mere 1 buck left. Darn Right! So eh, I ate lunch, bought a present for Fiqqy, and another present for Idah and bought a large Ice tea from Mc cos we were freaking thirsty larh. Reasonable , right?

I think it is anyway. Amira broght me to the bargaining area of Bugis. The like pasar malam type. but before we went there we went rounding. Like seriously roamed the whole Seiyu Bugis Shopping Mall. Yepp. Then ate at KFC and headed for that particular area lerr. quite nice the goods there. Loads of bags!! All around. Haa. Damn jakoN!!

Then now I am very tired. My feet and numb. Uh huh. Shopping is Tiring. Even if it is oly window shopping.

' get your freak onn ** ! '

Vesak Day Beach Gathering.

2005-05-28T19:20:00.000-07:00

heyhey.
last monday went beach. damn crowded.

picture says a thousand words.

go my link section and click the vesak day gethering.

oh btw... the pics are from my aunts albums soo whatever that says me is not really me. its her//

peace.

That was some fast semester.

2005-05-27T20:11:00.000-07:00

Oh My Goodness. Semester One have just came and gone by. Just like that. I guess I have to admit, that despite the scoldings, naggings, homeworks, tests, pranks, hurts, laughs, sads, happys, and everything else, it was a definite adventurous, memorable and fun semester I will always remember. Especially the laughs I've had with my sweetsmellingshits group. Haha. No matter where or when, we'll always have the first and last laugh. No day goes by without a laugh or two. Lol. I usually complain in my real diary that my life was a boring one and I neede adventure. So this semester or Term 2 specifically was a special one cause that was exactly what I gotten. Adventure!
Well, not those kind of adventure like, Indiana Jones kind, but adventure where different stuff happens everyday and it never gets old. Uh huh.

So today is the last day of school. We got a half day and mai, me, lyana, gillian, pei rong, cheryl went cineleisure and watched monster-in-law. The show was damn cute larh. Damn funny! Haha. Couldnt stop laughing. Seriously good show to watch and end off this semester.
After we got out of the cinema, I couldnt stop myslef from recalling the funniest partS of the movie, cause I wanted to keep on laughing summore and summore. Haix.

Well, after that me lyana and mai went home straight away cause lyana's mom wanted her to be home by 3pm or she'll be strip naked in front of her friends later at teh airport. Ok, actually all her mom wanted was her to have her sleep for her flight later on. Haha. I kept em[hasizing to Lyana that she can sleep in the airplane. right? yep Im sure of that. And Mai has got tuition, again. So we all took a taxi and dropped Lyana first, followed by mai and then me. Lyana paid for the whole fee. Whoa. Thank you Lyana!

So tonight that minimat going to China. Well, technically its this Saturday's morning. Well, I wish I could send her, but like of course I cant right? No transport. No fair larh. They all going overseas with friends for like more than a week. Im sure they'll be depending a lot on each other roomate. I can guarentee that yeah. you'll definitely find out stuff you've never known before bout that person when you become roomates. Cause things like gopoh gapah , toilet, sleep, noise will come into the picture.

I think i'll just call Lyana before she goes off for her trip. I'll just say it here; Hope all of them have a safe flight there, have fun and reach back Singapore safe and sound.

Finale.

2005-05-26T22:26:00.000-07:00

Hows this skin?
I think I shall keep it for a long while.

Tell me nice or not kayy.

So, yesterday, I have to say, was the most desperate day of my entire secondary life. Easier saying, it was the WORSEST day! Firstly, it rained in the morning and my mother woke me up earlier than usual to go to school. Shit larh! I didnt even get to finish my dream. Whatever that dream was.
So, my quite clean shoes got dirrty. Like really. My socks were wet and soggy and dirrty. So everything under my feet felt squishy. Ew!
We had the activities for the Cultural Week. Me, mai, lyana, atiqah, atiqah, nurin, adlin, hazwani, farhanah, yara, and someone did our dikir thang. We performed 'Detik' first before following up on the lame one which were going to be taught to the 'participants'. Man! Many things were not prepared sia. It was pretty frantic and hectic I have to say. But we definitely had fun!
Then Amira was supposed to be teaching the Malay Dance but she sibuked with us then kene locked out of the AS1. Muahaha.
So she just joined us in the teaching. Warlow! Damn tiring arh teaching these people. Like OMG.
Not only mulut berbueh, tekak haus, palm red, BUT mater ngan hati pun sakit!
Gosh im not saying like Im all goody or anything, But at the very least i do know what appreciate, courtesy, manners and SMILING means!
Mak, tengok muker orang jeling sini saner. EYE-ROLLING. Body language tunjuk cant be bothered. Siul! Skali aku tempeleng muker kau melayang entah ke maner aku pun tak kisah!!
Ugh. Dolmat Samdol.
BUT. It was definitely an enriching experience.
After school, me, amira and mai wanted to go somewhere but have no idea where to go. Then dodol Sarah came in and suggested PPMac.
Ohhhh Noooo. Sheesh PPMac dont rawk. The area like so Ulu, to me.
In the end obviously we went there. That was when my worsest dilemma happened to me. Okok. This is too public. But I stained my skirt. Aaaeeeek. At public place u know!! At least at school I wouldnt mind as much.
Luckily Amira and Mai wasnt REALLY THAT disgusted about it.
Mai; We all girls what. hahahahah.
Obviously they were laughing larh. Especially that Sarah. She was laughing cam nak giler. Then she said after her laughing had a little bit subsided and wanted to go to the Girls toilet, the guys in the Boys toilet did not close the door and they were bloody PEEING. x[ Eww.
Sarah was like; Lucky they were facing the other side, But I saw their butts.
We were all laughing, as per normal, and like gasp and Eww-ed and stuff. But they all still didnt stop laughing at me. I was like bloody frantic and dunno-what-to-so-situation and they laughed.

*Ahem* I would like to take this opportunity to thank MAISARAH and AMIRA for helping me
do whatever you did. [In the toilet, remember?]

THANK YUUUs!

I was almost already safe but I was very conscious of me back so I carried my bag like those mats. Haiyo! Anyways we went back home after that. I went home with Mai, then before, I used my Ez-Link to pay for the Mcs Food. Full, $5.50. Balance- $0.00.
Yes, that means no money to take bus home. I asked Mai if she had any change for me to use.
Guess what, 30cents. But thank goodness Mai is such a good friend and is very patient with me. She waited with me for almost an hour before I got the courage to ask two seniors for 55cents.
Like whoa. You can laugh. Yes you definitely can. Coz reading this, will set you amused. But, the situatin was far from what you are feeling. Damn scary larh. Very2 frightening DESPERATE situation. And once again, I'd like to thank Mai for her undying patient, sneezing, sleepiness and herself for waiting for almost an hour. thank you!!!!

The value of friends; Priceless.

Im your Girl, You my Girl, We your Girls;
Dont you know that we Love you x] <3<3

Construction

2005-05-25T06:51:00.000-07:00

Ehh
U know Whatttt!

Im sappose to update on something but i was TOooo busy finding a new bloodied skin for my bootiful bloggie.

AND. I lost the taggie code gain!!!!
ArGh.

UNDER CONSRTUCTION.

yeppz..
I shal update tomorrow kayy.

gonna watch SHAN [hott stuff] on Eye For a Guy now.

ciao babes.

just to let yall know.
JANNAH. yes our darrling jannah has SAFELY laned at her destination- Toronto.

And yesh. She has met loads of hotties and have their autographs.
She met a famous Gilmre Girl.

Basically she's having the time of her life.
JANNAH!
Remember. My very special sovenior. heheh. x]

"My heart wont be a ragdoll anymore"- Maroon5

Ciao!!!!

barenakedness.

2005-05-21T21:50:00.000-07:00

barenaked
and i just cant take it
im getting cheated
No, I just cant fake it anymore

I wonder if anyone else have felt naked before. hmm. Actually everyone should be feeling naked
almost everyday. Especially when showering. Right?
But Im asking naked. As in yoiu just feel totally comfortable with that person as though that person sees u naked. Sees U// Like your true self. true form. And u feel so naked around them. comfortable, cosy, like that person make u feel naked. you know?
Herm. i dont think Ive felt that way before. Not even with my girlfriends, best friends.
I only feel naked when I express myself through words. Liek when Im writing in my Diary. Cos even though I have my best friends and girlfriends there, I still know we all have limits. im afraid by letting myself GO. like just telling them just like tat. Im afraid by doing that, my words would sting them, hurt them deeply when i amiss my limits.
naked.
I feel naked through my writings?
Ok, now that dont make sense to me. Cause writings have their limits too.
Like i arent able to find the correct words to make or show or let my emotions hrough the writings. or how about, if im tired of writing? Arent these limits?
I feel as though Im not making sense at all.
Am I?

I dont know.
Maybe none can feel the nakedness Im trying to say. Basically maybe, most probably that
EVERYTHING has its limits.
It Sucks, huh.

For example, when u joke u have your limits cause you cant go over board as u may just hurt someone with the joke or sarcasticness.
Another example, how about the words you use?
Like me, I know i may seem very harsh and 'pedas' in the words I use like, "f**k, bitch, sial, puki, buto, etc" in school. Bt I do know the limit in which I can use em. I know what respect and 'sopan mean. Cause when I step into my house, I do NOT use such words. I realize my limits,
Im not that biadap.
See.
Limits.

This is bloody sickening.
I cant express my views properly.
Cause i cant think of anymore words to use.
See.
Limits. Again.

Anyway.
Gota be tolak ansur and not use this comp always.

See ya.

case malas.

2005-05-19T01:33:00.000-07:00

heheh.
im online everyday.
almost every second.
the minute i get home.

BOOSH.

I on my comp.
BUT. I cant be bothered
to update.

Anyway.
My Lower Half. Of my Body.
That incudes my Arse.

Is suffering from aches and pains.
Yesh. Thats right. I cant get my Arse to
cooperate with me as quickly.

Gawd I feel Old.

Well anyway, it happened cause
my school has this competition:
Buzz@ Canteen.

Where each class have to put up a performance
based on anything at all for the auditions.

Then the selected ones will show it off to the school
during reccess.

Basically most of the Sec 2s putted up a dance ensemble.
My class danced to the sing Lose my Breath
So U can tell-hopefully- how many booty shake we had to do.

A lot of movements. Kinda like excersising(??) except funner.
So we had intensive practise on tuesday.
And on the morning of Wednesday- after the math and science results
were issused- we practiced again cos our auditions were arnd 11am.

Then had our auditions... blah blah blah. Then finish arh.
Oh yeah/.
On Tuesday,
after the 'intensive practice'.
Mai and Lyana came over to 2O.

Amira switched Perfect 10 to some malay station.
We were like; WHooIIIIiIIII Amira!!! Tangan kau gatal arh!!

A song was playing. Pop Yeh Yeh.
Immeadiately we werent furious nemore.
We were like standing up and doing 70's dancing.
A-go -go dancing. Whatever you call it.

At least mai and me were on our feet.
Lyana was just sitting on the chair.
laughing and shaking her head.
amira was, as always, slacker.... no dancing no nothing.
she just laugh at the song at the same time singing widdit.
monotonously. really!!
Listen when Amira is singing. One tone siarh.

Ish.

Wednesday adfter school. Slack for a while.
On the damn cd player and blasted songs.
The people in 2O were like singing to them
It was oh so Coool.

Then Amria plaited Safiah's hair.
Then Jannah wants it. So amira plaited for her too.
Using one of Mai's many clips on her head.
She had about 10 or so. yepps.

Then Shrifah and Sadelena came in.
Beh sharifah also wanted it. Then had to use another oone of mai's clips.

Then we dunno where to go.
As in for me amira and Mai.
So we asked pipol where would be a nice place to go to eat.

People giving us answers like damn!
We want to go sumwhere near...
Easier to go home. x]

So we went to Tampines Mall
And ate at Long John Silver.
Not enough money and couldnt take neoprints.
haiz.

So like we went to Town Today
After our Annual cross Country.
Did nothin much, just ate.
and merayap hurr and there,,

Yeps.
I feel sad now.

Cos I feel like my longer friends seems be fading away from me
as i try to get our colours back again.

Read btw the lines of that phrase.
You'll geddit.

So We think about Tomorrow
Like We think about now
Can we survive it Out there?
Can we make it somehow?

2005-05-15T21:25:00.000-07:00

eheh.
u know what.
i veh the lazy to update
about thursday.

i know!!
go maisarah's blog
everything is there.
go!

Fish arh.
i thought of updating about
Friday and Sat.
but Im fishingly lazy.
and I have to call mai now.

aish. K nvm
i'll give the basic important
stuff dat happened.

on friday.
the saddest day of my 2O/1O
class life.

Its the saddest.
Cos its the first time i ever cried
because of conflicts btw classmates.
I wasnt REALLY part of it.

But i was part of it too.
Ya know?

I went down for recess then
come up back.
The class was splitted up.

It was the situation, tension, atmosphere
that drove me sad.
I just cried a lil bit tho.
I didnt wanna be seen as 'soft'

Furthermore,
i saw one my one start to cry
and get pissed.

Then someone pointed me
to the direction of the whiteboard.

Thats' when i saw it.
Some one wrote.

" Where's the unity?
gone.. "

Veh saddening kayy.
Really know.

Then before recess
mai was jupping up and down.
bouncing telling me that we should call
up one of our victims and irritate em'.

She say sing this NEWEST song by Kelly Clarkson.
She say shout loud2.

Then i was like; Oooo Kay.
;But sekejap je tau. Until 2.
;I gonna go back to TKP meet my frens.

So yar.
I thot that was the plan.
BOTH plan failed.
The gathering AND the irritating.

After school,
as usual went to 2N.
Mai was like sleepy.
Lyana was like dunno where.
Amira was like serak.

I kept asking; jadik ke tak?
; cepat arhh. aku dah nak kene pergi.

Cos meeting my old frens are like
IMPORTANT.
I never see them everyday like
I used to.
Basically Im saying.
I miss Em' all. Even the enemies.

So yar.
I was saying; dah tak jadik?
; dah? betul eh?
[ I also know my friends in Cedar
are definitely just as important ]
;betul? betul? Dah arh eh. I go first.
;Bye.

Then I rushing2 go there.
Thot I was going to be late reaching TKP.
skali they not there.
not all of em plan to be there u see.

Syarina asked if i wanted to go a day or two ago.
i asked who is going?
[ Even so i dun care. I'll just go ]
Then she say so far onli me and irsyaad.
Im like ok larh I go.

So I go there and then these two people not there.

Honestly,
i was like.
; Eh cam ader je yang tak kene.
; am I like the first?
So i wait.
Then i called Idah for Rina's no.
i called rina
she said
; sorry eh husna. Kiter due dah tak jadik arh.
; I wanted to tell u but dunno how to get your contact [ understandable]
I said
; Nah its okie. Yeah its alright.

So honestly speaking,
no offence.
And Im really sorry to say this.
I thot,
; OMG. Ive been ditched.
Lol yeah.
thats what I thot arh.

What to do siarh.
i also got the stupid things u call feelings.
at least the negative ones are stuupidd.

Yarh. so After that
I went macs and bought
McSpicy Double.
FuuuuuHhhh.
YyuuUUUmMm.

I went home
then amira called
she told me
;kawan kau tadik telefon
bilang jgn gi TKP.

then we talked arh.

then went online mai
told me same thing.
I acted like i didnt know.
and typed.
Oh really. ya, then?
stuff liddat arh.

Lol.
So yar.
I chatted wid Mr. D
and he's like they didnt come cos they're sick.

Then Im like.
OHHHHH.
NoWonderrrr.
Then terus angry feeling POOF
Gone.

Thats that.
Saturday.
Definitely boring.

But i got a surprise Gift.
really Surprise

My mom went
to the Doc.
To check her womb.
Then she had to wait for
an hour and a half.

So, she went to shop sumwhere.
And bought for me a radio/ cd player/ vcd player
set.

I was like Whooooaaa.
;Just liddat? They buy fer me?
;OMG.

Then my parents came back
and showed us the scan pic thingy.
U know what.
It was super kewl larh.

The featus had the basic forms already lor.
you can see the head, the body, the legs and hands.
Serious.. It was like a miracle of something.
The best thing was. You can see the heart Beating.
Not on the paper picture of course.

The miracle was that,
the featus was onli 6.1 cm!!!!!!!!

So yar.
to day got madrasah.
Farnie stuff happened.
i was bitching the boys again.

And got ustazah to give them punishment
cos they never hand in the project.

MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

Where's the unity?
gone..

gotta go call mai now..
ciao.

Thurs

2005-05-13T07:17:00.000-07:00

Thurs dae next.
Ok but let me warn yer.
Im writing this on
Friday the 13th at 10.30pm.

so forgive me if I say crap
or dont update properly.

Thursday was sleepy.
Very2.

We had assembly at the clasroom
blocks cause it was raining.

then pur principat reminded and nagged at
us about stuff which a feww bad eggs had done
to so called bring down the name.

So yar.
Then we were quickly headed to the hall.
i read the Post Exam Activity schedule.

There were so many talks.
And the activities were less enjoyable
than I had imagined/thought.

First we had music recital.
Loads of piano pieces.
Only 1 solo vioin play.

Okok. I'll update tomorrow or on monday.
ABOUT THURSDAY 12, May.

Kayy??

Friday 13, May 2005.
[ Those that know will know,
If you dont know, try not to ask. please. ]
~ Where is the unity?
Gone. *Cry*

~ Its better, For now.
Please give and take.
Dont start another one.

~I saw too many tears falling.

2005-05-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

Has it been that long since I updated?
Dont think so.
Right?
It has only been what, 2-3 days?

So, have I said nething about wednesday?
Ok. Cant rememeber.
I'll just blurt.

Woke up in the morning bathed,
wore Sch U, did hair went school.

Since I have a short term memory virus,
I forgot that we had a literature learning journey
on that day.

So year. went school and my classmates told me.
and I went ; OHHHHHHH Yarrrrrrr.....

I went to school in the morning with some fringe.
Going towards classrooms then saw Joanne
she was like; eh what happened to your hair?
I went; erm fringe??
So I pulled back my hair with a hair band
after joanne gave such a comment. x[

Went into class and amira didnt want to speak.
Seriously didnt wanna.

She kinda lost half of her voice and sounded like guy
cos she was sick.
actually she still IS sick.

She brought a camera.
After assembly before going for the excursion.
We snaped a few together. x]

The place was along the Singapore River.
Before that we had to go up to a museum
at this building.

It was on the 3rd floor.
They JUST HAD to take the stairs.
I mean, why not just build more of em'
and get rid of the stupid elevators decorating the building.
Like HUH.
U got the elevator there USE it.

seeshh.

So like went up and we got the chance
to see this section of the museum,
'Doll me up'

As the name suggests,
there were DOLLs!

Im not being kiddy or nething.
But they were beautiful.
It was this Bridal Collections for dolls.

Soo Bloody Nice..... OMG.
x]]

We had a tour around the river
with the tour guide.
He talked about the history and happenings
along the river in those olden days.

Kinda kewl.
But it was hot.
I was sweating like;
EEEEEWW

Then my group had a workshop.
Well, not exactly.
It was more of us creating a short skit
based on the situation last time along the river.

I was acting as this old chinese lady
who was recalling her childhood days
with her husband, who is played by safiah.

It was super cool arh.
But some of us couldnt improvise
or do impromptu.

That kinda disliked me.
So yar.

Went back to school
and had a late recess.

I didnt bring money.
So I just curi2 food here and there
from Adel, Amira and Safiah who were sitting with me.

Didnt have nething to do like, EAT x[
So I layed my head on the CANTEEN TABLE
and well TERslept.

Really. I dreamt bout something farnie.
Couldnt remember what was the dream
But it was farnie. Cos I remember
telling Amira and Safiah about it and they laughed.

We then had 1hr to decide/practice for Buzz@ Canteen.
Dont remind me. [ Actually I just reminded myself. Lol. ]
Something happened today to my class regarding
Buzz@ Canteen.
The situation saddened me truly.
Basically, I cried. A lil bit only larh.
Dont want to embarrass my self. x]

I'l post it. Maybe not.
NO. I wont.

After school me and amira we waiting for
Mai and Lyana to return from their Lit Journey.
After waiting, suddenly mai and Ly had Hist Pageant to do.

Had to wat sumore. x

So me and amira were sitting at the back
of the class.

People started leaving until it was left
with only us. alone. at the back of the class.

hmm.
two girls.

alone.

hmm.
what did they talk about.

hmm.
i think...

hmm.
its the case every girls school WILL have....

hmm.....
lesbians????

hmmm.
no wayyyyyyyy. x]]]]]]]]
[ i am ositively straight, inside and out
- actually i had thought about becoming a bucth
once cos i hated guys at that tym. HATE. ]

hmm.
two girls.
alone.
what did they talk about??

BOYS! x]

yep. dun worry.
we are good muslim ladies with a
strong agama.

so yar.

After the 2N finished their pageant,
I asked mai;
do we look like lesbians sitting alone at the back
of teh class?
she went fastly; yar.

i asked Lyana the same question
she was like; tak arhh.. no larh

See. open mindedness
and narrow ones.

tsk tsk tsk.

After that we went home i think.
yeap.

^^ Wednesday blues Overr.

~Where is the unity?
Gone. *Cry*

Exams Over!

2005-05-10T21:17:00.000-07:00

Exams Are Over !!

hei hei xx]
my exam period seem so wee- erd.
it started yesterday//
ended todayy//

FuuH. Thats fast.
Went out with Ly and Mai.
Tampines Mall!!

Amira couldnt join.
No Money.

Haixx[[

House Of Wax is NC-16 Kau!
Ish. Thought of watching it.
BUT. we're under age!!
seesh. Movie Ratings.

Instead, we went round'
Basically Merayap.

They bought sum stuff at Montiph.
I had to resist.
If not wouldnt have enough money left
xp

OMG. they brought me go Delifrance.
To eat.

I thought; how classy.

Not used to eating at these kinda places.
1. Kedai kopi/ Kopitiam/ food Court.
2.Fast Food restaurants.

After the delifrance occasion.
We went back to TM and ate clamchowder
at Long john Silver.
Lyana Belanje mEe.
How nice xD

We talked and stuff and
They start to imagine our future
so called boyfrens.

By creating these guys on how they'd look
standing beside u.

Mine was quite kewl actually.
Would not be so tall. But quite built.
Would always wera jeans and bagg shirt.
[heheh]
Wud sumtyms wear cap. SUMTYMS.
Tanened. But look like mat with intellectual
abilities. as in his clever arh.

Mai one. Created my me and Ly.
Tall and Lanky.
Veh Fair.
A runner.
then mai will be there cheerleading for him. lols.
Must be a gentle man.
thats all i can remember.

Ly's one was the worsest.
Its hard to create.
First One: the malay one
Somewhere around her height.
Bad Boy attitude.
normal stream.
Dark skined.
hair spiked towards the middle.
kinda like a moehog except not so hight arhx.

Second One: the chinese one
this is wayy better for her.
those jap looking type. quite built
not that tall. wears khakis or board shorts
baggy top. normal cap NOT mesh ones.
with fringe 'appearing' when wear cap.

Sweet Huh.
Bootiful Far-fetched dreams//

took a couple of neos.
Farnie ones. check out sum of em'
at my frenster acc.

been on the net for tooooo LonGg
ciao for now.

stay rawking.

2005-05-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to complain.

Maisarah!! i am not wee -erd.
If i am You dont have to shoo people
away form YOUr blog into mine..... !!

*whiny*

whoii. I like this skin okayyy.
its totallie collage.
pieces from here and there.
heeh.

AND
u can copy stuff like pics. yeah!!!

finally got the code for that.
actually it came with the template readi.

then when u right clik my page, it will vibrate.

wheeeeee~

gotta stardieee. ciao people//

x]]]]]

unreasonability

2005-05-02T22:07:00.000-07:00

aiyo people
haix.

got back from KL at about 6.3pm
yesterday.

damn tired siah. but still have homework.
SCIENCE summore.
aiyohhhh.

it was fun. basically cos
it was my first time my family
drive up to KL.

usually take coach mah.
it was aight.
kinda BORING.
but yar. at least went out.

So, didnt get to watch desperate housewives
fell asleep.

damn hard to wake up in the morning.
bloody.

So had a few lessons. English period was tough.
teacher went 'ballistic' and didnt want to teach.

kinda hard to blame on her.
maybe we werent good anough.
not disciplned enough.
we fidgit se scold.
say it distracts her.

haix. expectation.

but she really seriously nice.
she's understandin.
cos she would scold one minute,
the next she's joking round.
doesnt bear grudges.

but i find her 'irritatedness' can
be kinda unreasonable.

enough bout that.
after school, had to stay back for IPW.

OMG.
THE TEACHER SERIOUSLY SARCASTIC.

when i say sarcastic,
i mena not the laughable kind.
but seriously hurtful.

my classmate cried because of the teacher.
I didnt really 'witness' the situation
even though i was in the class.

because i was busy setting up the computer
for my group's presentation.

but i heard my classmate cried like sobbign andstuff.
according to certain sources,
the teacher embarrased my classmate terribly.

over a bloody littel thing.
HOW UNREASONABLE!!

she made my classmate SWEAR.
for goodness sake!
she's telling the truth.
bloody accept it larrr.

SEEEESSHHHH. x[

then after that went to canteen.
jannah wrote the history pageant script readi,
so iw as 'rehearsing' with her.

lyana and mai and amira came.
i was reading the script like a bubbly toddler.
veh hish sqeaky kinda voice.
basially crapping gain arh.

then lyana wa like "the students supose to be what age group?"
janah say," oh no, ni bukan any age group, this is HUSNA."

i say man. thankx siah jannah.

my talented words, ahem, ahem.

STOP BEING UNREASONABLE.
shessh.